“Shall not death be like this?” he said, and threw himself upon the
sand, and hid his face and his eyes from it all. For there is this
strange thing about all glory embodied in the material, that, when the
passion of it rises to its height, we hurry from its presence that its
idea may perfect itself in silent and dark and deaf delight. Of its
material self we want no more: its real self we have, and it sits at
the fountain of our tears. Malcolm hid his face from the source of his
gladness, and worshipped the source of that source.
Rare as they are at any given time, there have been, I think, such
youths in all ages of the world--youths capable of glorying in the
fountain whence issues the torrent of their youthful might. Nor is
the reality of their early worship blasted for us by any mistral of
doubt that may blow upon their spirit from the icy region of the
understanding. The cold fevers, the vital agues that such winds breed,
can but prove that not yet has the sun of the perfect arisen upon them;
that the Eternal has not yet manifested himself in all regions of
their being; that a grander, more obedient, therefore more blissful,
more absorbing worship yet, is possible, nay, is essential to them.
These chills are but the shivers of the divine nature, unsatisfied,
half-starved, banished from its home, divided from its origin, after
which it calls in groanings it knows not how to shape into sounds
articulate. They are the spirit-wail of the holy infant after the bosom
of its mother. Let no man long back to the bliss of his youth--but
forward to a bliss that shall swallow even that, and contain it, and be
more than it. Our history moves in cycles, it is true, ever returning
toward the point whence it started; but it is in the imperfect circles
of a spiral it moves; it returns--but ever to a point above the former:
even the second childhood, at which the fool jeers, is the better, the
truer, the fuller childhood, growing strong to cast off altogether,
with the husk of its own enveloping age, that of its family, its
country, its world as well. Age is not all decay: it is the ripening,
the swelling of the fresh life within, that withers and bursts the husk.
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