For a long time Lady Bellair had had her mind set on a match between
the daughter of her old friend the Marquis of Lossie and her nephew,
and it was with this in view that, when invited to Lossie House, she
had begged leave to bring Lord Meikleham with her. The young man was
from the first sufficiently taken with the beautiful girl to satisfy
his aunt, and would even then have shown greater fervour in _his_
attentions, had he not met Lizzy Findlay at the wedding of Joseph
Mair’s sister, and found her more than pleasing. I will not say that
from the first he purposed wrong to her: he was too inexperienced in
the ways of evil for that; but even when he saw plainly enough to
what their mutual attraction was tending, he gave himself no trouble
to resist it; and through the whole unhappy affair had not had one
smallest struggle with himself for the girl’s sake. To himself he was
all in all as yet, and such was his opinion of his own precious being,
that, had he thought about it, he would have considered the honour of
his attentions far more than sufficient to make up to any girl in such
a position for whatever mishap his acquaintance might bring upon her.
What were the grief and mortification of parents to put in the balance
against his condescension? what the shame and the humiliation of the
girl herself compared with the honour of having been shone upon for
a period, however brief, by his enamoured countenance? Must not even
the sorrow attendant upon her loss be rendered more than endurable--be
radiantly consoled by the memory that she had held such a demigod in
her arms? When he left her at last, with many promises, not one of
which he ever had the intention of fulfilling, he did purpose sending
her a present. But at that time he was poor--dependent, indeed, for
his pocket-money upon his aunt; and, up to this hour, he had never
since his departure from Lossie House taken the least notice of her
either by gift or letter. He had taken care also that it should not
be in her power to write to him, and now he did not even know that he
was a father. Once or twice the possibility of such being the case
occurred to him, and he thought within himself that if he were, and
it should come to be talked of, it might, in respect of his present
hopes, be awkward and disagreeable; for, although such a predicament
was nowise unusual, in this instance the circumstances were. More
than one of his bachelor friends had a small family even, but then it
was in the regular way of an open and understood secret: the fox had
his nest in some pleasant nook, adroitly masked, where lay his vixen
and her brood; one day he would abandon them for ever, and, with such
gathered store of experience, set up for a respectable family man. A
few tears, a neat legal arrangement, and all would be as it had never
been, only that the blood of the Montmorencies or Cliffords would
meander unclaimed in this or that obscure channel, beautifying the
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