She did not weep--or pray. The sense of an arid and heart-burning oppression kept her eyes dry, and turned her heart, that might have been the fountain of pure prayer, to stone. She hated herself, the world, all that she had seen and known. God Himself seemed against her, for she knew her own innocence. Ah, yes! How she had tried, and tried, to be good, to be at peace; and it was all in vain. At every turn of her young life the evil shadow rose, pushing her down to some desolate abyss of shame. As she sat thinking it all over, she seemed covered from head to foot with some horrible pollution. Though her spirit was pure, impurity was upon her, choking and stifling her with its abomination. She shuddered and moaned, praying for one thing only--that death might quickly come. What should she say or do, when she saw the kind eyes harden into indignation, the kind lace darken with this last shame? Sooner or later, her husband must know the truth, if he did not know it already, if the malignant voices in the air had not already whispered it to him. She shrank in horror, thinking of how she could meet his gaze. One thing now seemed certain to her--that the roof which covered her was no longer hers, that to remain with James Forster as his lawful wife was to live on in open adultery, which was not marriage. He himself> she knew, would be the first to recognise the infamy of that union; and then, even if _he_ pitied her, as was faintly possible, how should she bear the scrutiny of the world, the worldly scorn of his sister’s cruel eyes? As she sat despairing there came a soft knock at the door, which she had locked on entering; and the voice of her little step-son cried-- ‘Mamma! mamma!’ She could not answer, she seemed choking; and now for the first time her eyes were dim and blind. The cry was repeated-- ‘Mamma! mamma! open the door!’ Without stirring she at last found strength to speak. ‘Who is there?’ ‘It is I, mamma! Let me in!’ ‘Go away, dear; I am dressing.’ ‘Papa has sent me for you. He has just come home, and is waiting to see you.’ Waiting to see her? She shuddered as if stabbed, and unconsciously made a gesture of supplication. Could he have heard the truth, or a whisper of the truth? ‘Mamma, do you hear? Will you not come?’ She forced herself to answer-- ‘Yes, I am coming. Go away now, dear! I will be down directly.’ Then she heard the little feet pattering away. She rose and wearily paced up and down the room. Her heart felt dead within her, her whole life frozen in her veins. She looked in the glass, and was startled at her face; it was so ghastly in its set look of pain. What could she do? She knew that if she did not go down Forster would be certain to come to seek her. At last she resolved in very desperation to answer his summons. She cared not what happened now; if the worst came, it must come sooner or later. Perhaps she might summon up courage to tell him the truth with her own lips.