In the five days of banishment just lived through, the need for
a readjustment of his position with regard to her had come to him
forcibly. The memory of the night when weakness and he had been
at perilously close quarters had returned to him persistently and
uncomfortably, spoiling the remembrance of his triumph. It had been well
enough to smother the thought of that night in days of work. But had
the ignoring of it blotted out the weakness? Had it not rather thrown it
into bolder relief? A man strong in his own strength does not turn his
back upon temptation; he faces and quells it. In the solitary days in
Clifford's Inn, in the solitary night-hours spent in tramping the city
streets, this had been the conviction that had recurred again and again,
this the problem to which, after much consideration, he had found a
solution--satisfactory at least to himself. When next Chilcote called
him--It was notable that he had used the word “when” and not “if.” When
next Chilcote called him he would make a new departure. He would no
longer avoid Eve; he would successfully prove to himself that one
interest and one alone filled his mind--the pursuance of Chilcote's
political career. So does man satisfactorily convince himself against
himself. He had this intention fully in mind as he came forward now.
“Well,” he said, slowly, “has it been very hard to have faith--these
last five days?” It was not precisely the tone he had meant to adopt;
but one must begin.
Eve turned at his words. Her eyes were brimming with life, her cheeks
still touched to a deep, soft color by the keenness of the wintry air.
“No,” she answered, with a shy, responsive touch of confidence. “I
seemed to keep on believing. You know converts make the best devotees.”
She laughed with slight embarrassment, and glanced up at him. Something
in the blue of her eyes reminded him unexpectedly of spring skies--full
of youth and promise.
He moved abruptly, and crossed the room towards the window. “Eve,” he
said, without looking round, “I want your help.”
He heard the faint rustling of her dress as she turned towards him, and
he knew that he had struck the right chord. All true women respond to
an appeal for aid as steel answers to the magnet. He could feel her
expectancy in the silence.
“You know--we all know--that the present moment is very vital. That it's
impossible to deny the crisis in the air. Nobody feels it more than I
do--nobody is more exorbitantly keen to have a share--a part, when the
real fight comes--” He stopped; then he turned slowly and their
eyes met. “If a man is to succeed in such a desire,” he went on,
deliberately, “he must exclude all others--he must have one purpose, one
interest, one thought. He must forget that--”
Eve lifted her head quickly. “--that he has a wife,” she finished,
gently. “I think I understand.”
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