"I can see her now, a figure of perfect beauty, regal, splendid in the
silvery moonlight. The light playing upon her marbled features, finding
reflection in eyes wide with sincerity, truth and passion. Vita, Vita,
I can never tell you all that picture inspired in me. Suddenly I knew
what life meant. Up till then I had merely existed. Life had had no
meaning for me but the necessity of working out that simple duty of
effort which belongs to us all. With your coming everything changed.
Life became at once that superb thing of which the dreamer speaks.
Where before only the black shadows of a drear depression had been, at
once life became flooded with a golden light. It was beautiful,
beautiful."
The woman's wondering gaze was now frankly held by the passionate eyes
regarding her. She had no power to withdraw it, she had no desire to
withdraw it. Her cheeks were flushed. Her lips were parted, revealing
the pearly whiteness of her teeth framed in their ruby setting, so
full, so ripe.
"But this is madness," she breathed without conviction. It was the
burden of her feelings seeking expression. She leant forward in her
chair, her hands so tightly clasped that the blood was pressed back
from her delicate finger-tips, and the simple rings dug hard into the
tender flesh.
"Madness? Madness?" Ruxton drew nearer. He laughed as he echoed the
word. It was the inconsequent laugh which is merely an audible
expression and possesses no meaning. "If it is madness let me be mad.
Madness? Then I never want sanity again. Love is madness, Vita, a
madness that is ordained, and without it love can never be love. The
man who can pause to reason does not know love. He can never love.
Leave reason and sanity for the cold affairs of life. Love can know no
check from such a course. That is how I love you, Vita. I want
you--you. I want you always with me, near me. I want you so that our
life together is all one. You must be part of me. You must be me. You
speak of the beginning. There is no beginning, just as there can be no
end. Love is all, everything. Vita--Vita----"
He had bent down from his great height. He had seized the woman's
tightly clasped hands. He had raised them with gentle force, and, as
though caught by the magnetism of all the love he had endeavored to
express, she rose to her feet, and permitted him to hold her prisoner
before him.
But now with his final appeal the tension seemed to relax. She stood
there for a moment, silent. Then she sighed faintly. It was as though
she had awakened from some beautiful dream. The flush on her oval
cheeks lessened, and the light in her eyes changed unmistakably. The
man seemed to become suddenly aware of the change, and a note of
apprehension sounded in his voice as he repeated his appeal.
"Vita--Vita," he cried, with a passion of yearning in the words.
The woman shook her head, but her hands remained captive.
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