The heaviness of his military figure was carefully toned under the
perfect lines of his evening clothes. But the rigidity of his square
shoulders and back would not be denied. Then, too, the shape of his
head. He was Prussian, so Prussian, and every inch a soldier of the
Hohenzollern dynasty.
He made his way down the long corridors which led towards a distant
wing of the house, and passed on up-stairs.
Vita's days had become poignant with bitterness and self-reviling. But
the despair in her grey eyes had lessened, and all the youthful beauty
had returned to her cheeks. Her abject dread had given place to a
condition of dreary hope which left her haunted only by the hideous
memory of the price she had yet to pay.
Her mood was one of self-abasement and self-loathing. She told herself
that she was purchasing life, or the chance of it, with all that was
best in her. Sacrifice? She had told herself that she was sacrificing
her love for her father's life. It was so. She knew she would sacrifice
anything to safeguard that. But as time passed, and her dejected mood
gained ascendancy, she began to question her purpose with a deplorable
cynicism that, in reality, was no part of her nature.
She reminded herself of the cowardice she knew to be hers. How much of
the sacrifice she asked was for her father, and how much for herself?
Then came the self-castigation. She was afraid to die. She knew she was
afraid. And, in utter self-contempt, she told herself she was flinging
away the honest love of a man, of which she could never be worthy, as
the price of her life. Yes, there was no denying the truth. She valued
life--her miserable life--at a price greater than anything else. Her
love? It was a poor thing. It was beneath contempt. She could sell
herself to this brutal Prussian that she might live on to see the sun
rise for a few more seasons, a few more miserable years of conscious
existence.
Such were her feelings as she sat before the cheerful blaze of the fire
in her apartment. The evening had closed in, her evening meal had been
brought her, and finally cleared away. She had no desire for
occupation. There was only thought left her--painful, hideous thought.
Everything had gone awry. All plans seemed to have miscarried. She, and
her father, and her lover had been out-man[oe]uvred by the Prussian
machine, and now, now there only remained a sordid struggle for life
itself.
But she was roused, as once before she had been roused, from the depths
of her misery by the coming of the man whom she now knew her whole
future life was bound to. She heard the door open and close. She did
not turn from the contemplation of her fire. Why need she? It was one
of her jailers. If it were the women she did not desire to see them. If
it were Von Berger she would allow him no sight of her misery. If it
were Von Salzinger----
"Vita!"
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