The Minister's Charge; Or, The Apprenticeship of Lemuel BarkerHowells, William Dean
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The Minister's Charge; Or, The Apprenticeship of Lemuel Barker
Howells, William Dean
Boston (Mass.) -- Fiction; Clergy -- Fiction; Poets -- Fiction
“Oh, a servant's place! If she'd been ashamed of a servant when you came
meechin' round her, where'd you been, I sh'd like to know? And now I
wish she had; 'n' if she wa'n't such a little fool, 'n' all wrapped
in you, the way 't she is, I could wish 't she'd never set eyes on you
again, servant or no servant. But I presume it's too late now, and I
presume she's got to go on suff'rin' for you and wonderin' what she's
done to offend you when you don't come, and what she's done when you
do, with your stuck-up, masterful airs, and your double-faced ways. But
don't you try to pretend to me, Lemuel Barker, 't you care the least
mite for her any more, 'f you ever did, because it won't go down! 'N'
if S'tira wa'n't such a perfect little blind fool, she could see 't
you didn't care for her any more than the ground 't you walk on, 'n' 't
you'd be glad enough if she was under it, if you couldn't be rid of her
any other way!” 'Manda Grier pulled her handkerchief out and began to
cry into it.
Lemuel was powerfully shaken by this attack; he did feel responsible for
Statira's staying in town all summer; but the spectacle of 'Manda Grier
publicly crying at his side in a place like that helped to counteract
the effect of her words. “'Sh! Don't cry!” he began, looking fearfully
round him. “Everybody 'll see you!”
“I don't care! Let them!” sobbed the girl. “If they knowed what I know,
and could see you _not_ cryin', I guess they'd think you looked worse
than I do!”
“You don't understand--I can explain--”
“No, you can't explain, Mr. Barker!” said 'Manda Grier, whipping down
her handkerchief, and fiercely confronting him across the table. “You
can't explain anything so 's to blind me any longer! I was a big fool to
ever suppose you had any heart in you; but when you came round at first,
and was so meek you couldn't say your soul was your own, and was so
glad if S'tira spoke to you, or looked at you, that you was ready to
go crazy, I _did_ suppose there was some _little_ something to you! And
yes, I helped you on all I could, and helped you to fool that poor thing
that you ain't worthy to kiss the ground she walks on, Lord forgive me
_for_ it! But it's all changed now! You seem to think it's the greatest
favour if you come round once a fortnight, and set and let her talk to
you, and show you how she dotes upon you, the poor little silly coot!
And if you ever speak a word, it's like the Lord unto Moses, it's so
grand! But I understand! You've got other friends now! _You after that
art-student_? Oh, you can blush and try to turn it off! I've seen you
blush before, and I know you! And I know you're in love with that girl,
and you're just waitin' to break off with S'tira; but you hain't got
the spirit to up and do it like a man! You want to let it lag along,
and _lag_ along, and see 'f something won't happen to get you out of it!
_You waitin' for her to die_? Well, you won't have to wait long! But if
I was a man, I'd spoil your beauty for you first.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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