The Minister's Charge; Or, The Apprenticeship of Lemuel BarkerHowells, William Dean
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The Minister's Charge; Or, The Apprenticeship of Lemuel Barker
Howells, William Dean
Boston (Mass.) -- Fiction; Clergy -- Fiction; Poets -- Fiction
“I see that you don't wish to tell me!” cried the girl. “But you might
have trusted me. I would have defended you, no matter what you had
done--the worse the better.”
Lemuel hung his head without answering.
After a while she continued: “If I had been that girl who had you
arrested, and I had been the cause of so much suffering to an innocent
person, I should never have forgiven myself. I should have devoted
my life to expiation. I should have spent my life in going about the
prisons, and finding out persons who were unjustly accused. I should
have done it as a penance. Yes! even if he had been guilty!”
Lemuel remained insensible to this extreme of self-sacrifice, and she
went on: “This book--it is a story--is all one picture of such a nature.
There is a girl who's been brought up as the ward of a young man. He
educates her, and she expects to be his wife, and he turns out to be
perfectly false and unworthy in every way; but she marries him all the
same, although she likes some one else, because she feels that she ought
to punish herself for thinking of another, and because she hopes that
she will die soon, and when her guardian finds out what she's done for
him, it will reform him. It's perfectly sublime. It's--ennobling! If
every one could read this book, they would be very different.”
“I don't see much sense in it,” said Lemuel, goaded to this comment.
“You would if you read it. When she dies--she is killed by a fall from
her horse in hunting, and has just time to join the hands of her husband
and the man she liked first, and tell them everything--it is wrought up
so that you hold your breath. I suppose it was reading that that made
me think there were burglars getting in. But perhaps you're right not
to read it now, if you're excited already. I'll get you something
cheerful.” She whirled out of the room and back in a series of those
swift, nervous movements peculiar to her. “There! that will amuse you,
I know.” She put the book down on the table before Lemuel, who silently
submitted to have it left there. “It will distract your thoughts,
if anything will. And I shall ask you to let me sit just here in the
reception-room, so that I can call you if I feel alarmed.”
“All right,” said Lemuel, lapsing absently to his own troubled thoughts.
“Thank you very much,” said Sibyl. She went away, and came back
directly. “Don't you think,” she asked, “that it's very strange you
should never have seen or heard anything of her?”
“Heard of who?” he asked, dragging himself painfully up from the depths
of his thoughts.
“That heartless girl who had you arrested.”
“She _wasn't_ heartless!” retorted Lemuel indignantly.
“You think so because you are generous, and can't imagine such
heartlessness. Perhaps,” added Sibyl, with the air of being illumined
by a happy thought, “she is dead. That would account for everything. She
may have died of remorse. It probably preyed upon her till she couldn't
bear it any longer, and then she killed herself.”
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