‘Is he gone?’ cried Isabel. ‘Oh, Ailie, look out after him, or kiss your
hand to him. Oh, give him one look before he goes, as if you were a
living woman, and no made of stone!’
And in her horror she rushed herself into the recess of the window, and
waved her hand to him as he went away. Mr. John turned round before the
door of his father’s house, which he was leaving, as he believed for
ever. A strange smile came over his face. The woman whom in his madness
he had compelled to marry him was there like a white vision, making no
sign. But the other tearful face, full of emotion, was turned towards
him; and Isabel, who had almost hated him for half her life, waved her
hand in the compunction of her mind. ‘My Margaret!’ he said, softly to
himself; and thus turned and disappeared out of the quiet world in which
he was unfit to live.
‘He is gone! Oh, Ailie, he is gone!’ said Isabel, coming back from the
window with a sob.
‘Aye, he’s gone!’ said Ailie; ‘and you are more moved than his wife. I
know what you would say, Isabel, but it’s useless--useless! What is man
to me? All that I ever was, all that I wanted, was to be the handmaid of
the Lord.’
‘But you are married to _him_!’ cried Isabel; ‘you are his wife; you
should go with him, or he should stay with you. Oh, Ailie, if it is not
too late----!’
‘There’s nae marrying, nor giving in marriage in Heaven,’ said Ailie.
‘If there is a Heaven--if it’s no just a delusion like the rest. But
what can I do? I’m willing to come to an end, and be done with all
manner of life, if that’s the Lord’s will. Asking and praying and
wishing for one thing more than another has gone clean out of my heart.’
‘And you have not a thought for him, the moment he has said farewell to
you--not a tear. Oh, Ailie!’ cried Isabel, in her impetuosity, ‘are you
made of stone?’
‘My heart’s dead,’ she said; and then relapsed into silence, which the
hasty, eager creature beside her could not break.
To leave her thus in her apathy seemed impossible to Isabel, and it was
equally impossible to stay and devote herself to Ailie’s solace, for
Ailie did not seem susceptible of any solace. She was lost in her own
thoughts. Before Isabel’s heart had ceased to throb with agitation and
excitement, Ailie had settled back into the profoundest stillness,
saying nothing to her visitor, taking no notice even of her presence.
And there was nothing left for it but to leave her to herself--to the
silence she preferred.
Isabel had just made up her mind to do this when the door opened again,
this time with more sound and commotion, and Ailie’s mother entered the
room. She came forward briskly, bringing the ordinary out-of-door life
into the mysterious atmosphere, though a certain appearance of anxiety
about her eyes betrayed that even Janet was disturbed by a state of
affairs so much different from her hopes.
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