The truth was that Roubaud, at present, passed all his spare time
in a small, out-of-the-way room on the first floor of the Café du
Commerce, which little by little had become a gambling-place. It was
there the assistant station-master satisfied that morbid passion for
play which had commenced on the morrow of the murder through a chance
game at piquet, to increase afterwards and become a firmly rooted
habit, owing to the absolute diversion and oblivion it afforded.
Henceforth, the gambling mania had a firm grip on him, as if it was
the sole gratification in which he found contentment. Not that he had
ever been tormented through remorse with a desire to forget, but amidst
the upheaval at home, amidst his shipwrecked existence, he had found
consolation in the diverting influence of this egotistic pleasure,
which he could enjoy alone; everything was obliterated by this passion
which completed his disorganisation.
Alcohol could not have brought him lighter or swifter moments, so free
from every anxiety. He had even released himself from the care of life.
He seemed to live with extraordinary, but disinterested intensity,
without being touched by any of those annoyances that formerly made
him burst with rage. And, apart from the fatigue of sitting-up all
night, he enjoyed very good health. He even put on fat, a heavy yellow
kind of fat, and his lids hung wearily above his troubled eyes. When
he went home with his slow, sleepy gestures, it was to display supreme
indifference for everything.
On the night that Roubaud returned to his lodgings to take the 300
frcs. in gold from under the parquetry, he wanted to pay M. Cauche, the
commissary of police at the station, several successive losses he had
made. Cauche, who was an old gambler, showed magnificent composure,
which rendered him redoubtable. Compelled by his duties to keep up the
appearances of an old military man, who, having remained bachelor,
spent all his time at the café as a quiet, regular customer, he averred
that he only played for pleasure; which did not prevent him passing
the whole night at cards and pocketing all the money of the others.
Rumours had got abroad that, owing to his inexactitude in the discharge
of his functions, it had become a question of forcing him to resign.
But matters dragged on, and there being so little to do, it seemed
unnecessary to exact greater zeal. So he continued to confine himself
to appearing for an instant on the platform of the station, where
everyone bowed to him.
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