And then I fancy that the daily intimacy with the sick man moved her
strangely. She raised his head to give him food, and it was heavy
against her hand; when she had fed him she wiped his sensual mouth and
his red beard. She washed his limbs; they were covered with thick hair;
and when she dried his hands, even in his weakness they were strong and
sinewy. His fingers were long; they were the capable, fashioning
fingers of the artist; and I know not what troubling thoughts they
excited in her. He slept very quietly, without a movement, so that he
might have been dead, and he was like some wild creature of the woods,
resting after a long chase; and she wondered what fancies passed
through his dreams. Did he dream of the nymph flying through the woods
of Greece with the satyr in hot pursuit? She fled, swift of foot and
desperate, but he gained on her step by step, till she felt his hot
breath on her neck; and still she fled silently, and silently he
pursued, and when at last he seized her was it terror that thrilled her
heart or was it ecstasy?
Blanche Stroeve was in the cruel grip of appetite. Perhaps she hated
Strickland still, but she hungered for him, and everything that had
made up her life till then became of no account. She ceased to be a
woman, complex, kind and petulant, considerate and thoughtless; she was
a Maenad. She was desire.
But perhaps this is very fanciful; and it may be that she was merely
bored with her husband and went to Strickland out of a callous
curiosity. She may have had no particular feeling for him, but
succumbed to his wish from propinquity or idleness, to find then that
she was powerless in a snare of her own contriving. How did I know what
were the thoughts and emotions behind that placid brow and those cool
gray eyes?
But if one could be certain of nothing in dealing with creatures so
incalculable as human beings, there were explanations of Blanche
Stroeve’s behaviour which were at all events plausible. On the other
hand, I did not understand Strickland at all. I racked my brain, but
could in no way account for an action so contrary to my conception of
him. It was not strange that he should so heartlessly have betrayed his
friends’ confidence, nor that he hesitated not at all to gratify a whim
at the cost of another’s misery. That was in his character. He was a
man without any conception of gratitude. He had no compassion. The
emotions common to most of us simply did not exist in him, and it was
as absurd to blame him for not feeling them as for blaming the tiger
because he is fierce and cruel. But it was the whim I could not
understand.
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