China -- Fiction; Communism -- Fiction; Women peasants -- Fiction
Then the mother put out her hand too and she felt the maid trembling
and she wept secretly and wiped her tears in the darkness on the quilt
and she said over and over, “I will come, my maid, be sure and I will
come, and when I come you shall tell me all and if they do not treat
you well I will see to it heartily. You shall not be treated ill.”
And then she said most gently, “But you have lain sleepless all this
night.”
And the maid answered, “Yes, and every night a while.”
“But you need not be afraid, child,” the mother answered warmly. “You
are the best and quickest blind maid I ever saw, and they know you
blind and they cannot blame you for it nor say we hid it from them.”
But long after the maid had fallen into light sleep at last the mother
lay and blamed herself most heavily, for somehow she felt some wrong
within herself that laid its punishment upon the maid, though how she
did not know, only she wished she had been better. And she blamed
herself lest if by any chance she should have found a nearer place to
wed her maid, a village where she could go each month or so, or even
found a poor man willing to move to the hamlet for a little price that
she could promise. Yet even when she thought of this she groaned within
her heart and doubted that her son and son’s wife would have spared
even this small price, for they kept the money now. So she thought most
heavily, “Yet I cannot hope she will never be beaten. Few houses be
there like ours where neither man nor his mother will beat a maid new
come. And it would tear my heart so, and so grieve me if I saw my blind
maid beaten or even if it was done near enough so I could hear of it,
or so the maid could run home and tell me, and I helpless once she is
wed, that I think I could not bear it. Better far to have her where
I cannot see her and where I cannot know and so be saved the pain
because I cannot see and so can hope.”
And after she had lain a while more and felt how heavy life lay on her
she thought of one thing she could do, and it was that she could give
the maid some silver coins for her own, as her own mother had done
when she left home. So in the darkness before dawn she rose and moving
carefully not to stir the beasts and fowls and frighten them she went
to her hole and smoothed away the earth and took out the bit of rag she
kept the little store in and opened it and chose out five pieces of
silver and thrust them in her bosom and covered the hole again. Then
with the silver in her bosom a little comfort came and she thought to
herself, “At least it is not every maid who comes from a poor house
with a little store of silver. At least my maid has this!”
And holding fast on this small comfort she slept at last.
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