China -- Fiction; Communism -- Fiction; Women peasants -- Fiction
He changed his clothes then and put shoes on his feet and to the mother
the time went so slow she could not bear it. When at last he was ready
she called him to her and pulled his head down and whispered in his
ear, “Son, do not spare money. If he be truly in the gaol, there must
be money spent to get him out. But money can do it, son. Whoever heard
of any gaol that would not let a man free for money? Son, I have a
little--in a hole here--I only kept it for him--use it all--use all we
have--”
The man’s face did not change and he looked at his wife and she looked
at him and he said, “I will spare all I can, my mother, for your sake.”
But she cried, “What does it matter for me?--I am old and ready to die.
It is for his sake.”
But the man was gone, and he went to fetch his cousin who had seen the
sight and the two went toward the town.
What could the mother do then except to wait again? Yet this was the
bitterest waiting of her life. She could not lie upon her bed and yet
she was faint if she rose. At last the son’s wife grew frightened
to see how the old woman looked and how she stared and muttered and
clapped her hands against her lean thighs and so she went and fetched
the old cousin and the cousin’s wife, and the pair came over soberly
and the three old people sat together.
It was true it did comfort the mother somewhat to have the others
there, for these were the two she could speak most to and she wept and
said again and again, “If I have sinned have I not had sorrow enough?”
And she said, “If I have sinned why do I not die myself and let it
be an end of it? Why should this one and that be taken from me, and
doubtless my grandson, too? No, I shall never see my grandson. I know
I never shall, and it will not be I who must die.” And then she grew
angry at such sorrow and cried out in her anger, weeping as she cried,
“But where is any perfect woman and who is without any sin, and why
should I have all the sorrow?”
Then the cousin’s wife said hastily, for she feared that this old
mother might cry out too much in her pain, “Be sure we all have sins
and if we must be judged by sins then none of us would have children.
Look at my sons and grandsons, and yet I am a wicked old soul, too, and
I never go near a temple and I never have and when a nun used to come
and cry out that I should learn the way to heaven, why then I was too
busy with the babes, and now when I am old and they come and tell me I
must learn the way before it is too late, why then I say I am too old
to learn anything now and must do without a heaven if they will not
have me as I am.”
So she comforted the distraught mother, and the cousin said in his
turn, “Wait, good cousin, until we hear what the news is. It may be you
need not grieve after all, for he may be set free with the money they
have to free him with, or it may be my son saw wrong and it was not
your son who went past bound.”
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