China -- Fiction; Communism -- Fiction; Women peasants -- Fiction
From that day on the mother kept out of the way of others and she
stayed alone with her children, and hid the growing of the wild thing
within her. Yet she pondered day and night what she could do. Outwardly
she worked as she ever had, storing the grain and setting all in order
for the winter, and when the festival of mid-autumn came and the hamlet
feasted and each house had its own joy and the little street was merry
with the pleasure and rejoicing and the houses full of grain and food,
the mother, though she had no joy, yet made a few small moon cakes for
her own children, too. When the moon rose on the night of the feast,
they ate the cakes upon the threshing-floor and under the willow trees
and saw the full moon shining down as bright as any sun almost.
But they ate gravely and it seemed the children felt their own lack
and the mother’s lack of joy, and at last the eldest said, solemnly,
“Sometimes I think my father must be dead because he never comes.”
The mother started then and said quickly, “Evil son you be to speak of
such a thing as your own father’s death!”
But a thought had come to her.
And the lad said again, “Sometimes I think I will start forth seeking
for him. I might go when the wheat is sown this year, if you will give
me a little silver, and I can tie my winter clothes upon my back, if it
be I am delayed in finding him.”
Then the mother grew afraid and she cried to turn his mind away, “Eat
another little cake, my son, and wait another year or so. What would
I do if you went away and did not come back either? Wait until the
younger son is large enough to fill your place.”
But the younger son cried stoutly, being wilful always when he had a
wish to make, “But if my brother goes, I will go too,” and he set his
little red lips pouting and he stared angrily at his mother. Then the
mother said reproachfully to the eldest, “There--you see what you do
when you say such things and set his mind on wandering!” And she would
not hear any more of it.
But the thought clung in her mind, and afterwards she pondered on it.
Here was she alone now these five years. Five years--and would not a
man have come long since if he were coming? Five years gone--and he
must be dead. It must be she was widow, perhaps a widow years long, and
never knew it. And the landlord’s agent was not wed. She was widow and
he not wed, for she had heard him say that his wife was dead last year
but she had not heeded, for what was it to her then, who was not widow?
Yes, she must be widow. That night she watched the great moon set
high in the heavens and she watched far into the night, the children
sleeping and all the hamlet sleeping save a dog here and there barking
at the enormous moon, and more and more it seemed to her she must be
widow, and if she were--if she were wed as soon as he would say, would
it be soon enough?
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