Mothers and daughters -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Riviera (France) -- Fiction
As Kate Clephane drove up late that night to the house in Fifth Avenue
she seemed to be reliving all her former anguished returns there, real
or imaginary, from the days when she had said to herself: “Shall I
never escape?” to those others when, from far off, she had dreamed of
the hated threshold, and yearned for it, and thought: “Shall I never
get back?”
She had said she might be late in returning, and had begged that no one
should stay up for her. Her wish, as usual, had been respected, and she
let herself into the hushed house, put out the lights, and stole up
past the door where Anne lay sleeping her last young sleep.
Ah, that thought of Anne’s awakening! The thought of seeing Anne’s face
once again in all its radiant unawareness, and then assisting helpless
at the darkening of its light! How would the blow fall? Suddenly and
directly, or gradually, circuitously? Would the girl learn her fate on
the instant, or be obliged to piece it together, bit by bit, through
all the slow agonies of conjecture? What pretext would Chris give for
the break? He was skilled enough in evasions and subterfuges--but what
if he had decided to practise them on Anne’s mother, and not on Anne?
What if the word he had given were already forfeited? What assurance
had any promise of his ever conveyed?
Kate Clephane sat in her midnight room alone with these questions.
She had forgotten to go to bed, she had forgotten to undress. She
sat there, in her travelling dress and hat, as she had stepped from
the train: it was as if this house which people called her own were
itself no more than the waiting-room of a railway station where she
was listening for the coming of another train that was to carry
her--whither?
Ah, but she had forgotten--forgotten that she had him in her power!
She had said to him: “I’ve got the means to beat you in the end,” and
he had bowed his head to the warning and given his word. Why, the mere
threat that she would tell his mother had thrown him on her mercy--what
would it be if she were to threaten to tell Anne? She knew him ...
under all his emancipated airs, his professed contempt for traditions
and conformities, lurked an uneasy fear of being thought less than his
own romantic image of himself.... No; even if his designs on Anne were
wholly interested, it would kill him to have her know. There was no
danger there.
The bitterness of death was passed; yes--but the bitterness of what
came after? What of the time to come, when mother and daughter
were left facing each other like two ghosts in a gray world of
disenchantment? Well, the girl was young--time would help--they would
travel.... Ah, no; her tortured nerves cried out that there could not
be, in any woman’s life, another such hour as the one she had just
lived through!
Toward dawn she roused herself, undressed, and crawled into bed; and
there she lay in the darkness, sharpening her aching wits for the
continuation of the struggle.
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