Detective and mystery stories; English fiction -- 19th century
Next day Delicia was too weak and broken in body and spirit to leave her
bedroom, which she had managed to reach by herself on recovering from
her swoon. Her husband sent her a brief note of farewell by one of the
servants. He was leaving London immediately for Paris, he said, ‘and
when all this nonsense had blown over,’ he would return. Till then he
was ‘hers affectionately.’ She crumpled the note in her hand and lay
still, her fair head fallen wearily back among her pillows, and a great
sense of exhaustion and fatigue numbing all her faculties. A batch of
letters came by the mid-day post, letters from strangers and friends,
all warmly testifying as usual to her genius; and as she read she sighed
heavily and wondered what was the use of it all?
‘They do not know I am dead!’ she said to herself, ‘That all my life is
done with—finished! If I had never known the meaning of love; if I had
never thought and believed that love was truly mine, how much better it
would have been for me! I should have worked on contentedly; I should
not have missed what I had no experience of, and I might—yes, I might
have been really great. Now there is no hope for any more
attainment—Love has murdered me!’
She rested in bed all day, dozing and dreaming and thinking; all night
between the slow-pacing hours she had long waking intervals of strange,
half-troubled, half-mystic musings. She saw herself, so she imagined,
dead;—laid out in her coffin with flowers round her; but as she looked
at her own stiffened corpse she knew it was not herself, she thus saw,
but only the image of what she had been. She, Delicia, was another
being—a being through whose fine essence light and joy were flowing.
She fancied she heard sweet voices murmuring in her ears,—
‘Sorrowful Delicia! Slain Delicia! This is not thine end—work has but
begun for thee, though earth has no more part in either thy toil or
pleasure! Come, Delicia! Love is not dead because of human treachery;
Love is immortal, unconquerable, unchangeable, and waits for thee
elsewhere, Delicia! Come and see!’
And so persistently was she haunted by the impression that something new
and strange awaited her, that almost unconsciously to herself she began
to be expectant of a sudden change in her destinies, though what that
change might be she could not by herself determine.
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