How Charles Davis survives in that wet, freezing, paint-scabbed room of
iron in the ’midship-house is beyond me—just as it is beyond me that
the wretched sailors in the wretched forecastle do not lie down in
their bunks and die, or, at least, refuse to answer the call of the
watches.
Another week has passed, and we are to-day, by observation, sixty miles
due south of the Straits of Le Maire, and we are hove-to, in a driving
gale, on the port tack. The glass is down to 28.58, and even Mr. Pike
acknowledges that it is one of the worst Cape Horn snorters he has ever
experienced.
In the old days the navigators used to strive as far south as 64
degrees or 65 degrees, into the Antarctic drift ice, hoping, in a
favouring spell, to make westing at a prodigious rate across the
extreme-narrowing wedges of longitude. But of late years all
shipmasters have accepted the hugging of the land all the way around.
Out of ten times ten thousand passages of Cape Stiff from east to west,
this, they have concluded, is the best strategy. So Captain West hugs
the land. He heaves-to on the port tack until the leeward drift brings
the land into perilous proximity, then wears ship and heaves-to on the
port tack and makes leeway off shore.
I may be weary of all this bitter movement of a labouring ship on a
frigid sea, but at the same time I do not mind it. In my brain burns
the flame of a great discovery and a great achievement. I have found
what makes all the books go glimmering; I have achieved what my very
philosophy tells me is the greatest achievement a man can make. I have
found the love of woman. I do not know whether she cares for me. Nor is
that the point. The point is that in myself I have risen to the
greatest height to which the human male animal can rise.
I know a woman and her name is Margaret. She is Margaret, a woman and
desirable. My blood is red. I am not the pallid scholar I so proudly
deemed myself to be. I am a man, and a lover, despite the books. As for
De Casseres—if ever I get back to New York, equipped as I now am, I
shall confute him with the same ease that he has confuted all the
schools. Love is the final word. To the rational man it alone gives the
super-rational sanction for living. Like Bergson in his overhanging
heaven of intuition, or like one who has bathed in Pentecostal fire and
seen the New Jerusalem, so I have trod the materialistic dictums of
science underfoot, scaled the last peak of philosophy, and leaped into
my heaven, which, after all, is within myself. The stuff that composes
me, that is I, is so made that it finds its supreme realization in the
love of woman. It is the vindication of being. Yes, and it is the wages
of being, the payment in full for all the brittleness and frailty of
flesh and breath.
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