And I knew anger. Not ordinary anger, but cold anger. And I caught a
vision of the high place in which we had sat and ruled down the ages in
all lands, on all seas. I saw my kind, our women with us, in forlorn
hopes and lost endeavours, pent in hill fortresses, rotted in jungle
fastnesses, cut down to the last one on the decks of rocking ships. And
always, our women with us, had we ruled the beasts. We might die, our
women with us; but, living, we had ruled. It was a royal vision I
glimpsed. Ay, and in the purple of it I grasped the ethic, which was
the stuff of the fabric of which it was builded. It was the sacred
trust of the seed, the bequest of duty handed down from all ancestors.
And I flamed more coldly. It was not red-brute anger. It was
intellectual. It was based on concept and history; it was the
philosophy of action of the strong and the pride of the strong in their
own strength. Now at last I knew Nietzsche. I knew the rightness of the
books, the relation of high thinking to high-conduct, the transmutation
of midnight thought into action in the high place on the poop of a
coal-carrier in the year nineteen-thirteen, my woman beside me, my
ancestors behind me, my slant-eyed servitors under me, the beasts
beneath me and beneath the heel of me. God! I felt kingly. I knew at
last the meaning of kingship.
My anger was white and cold. This subterranean rat of a miserable
human, crawling through the bowels of the ship to threaten me and mine!
A rat in the shelter of a knot-hole making a noise as beast-like as any
rat ever made! And it was in this spirit that I answered the gangster.
“When you crawl on your belly, along the open deck, in the broad light
of day, like a yellow cur that has been licked to obedience, and when
you show by your every action that you like it and are glad to do it,
then, and not until then, will I talk with you.”
Thereafter, for the next ten minutes, he shouted all the Billingsgate
of his kind at me through the slits in the ventilator. But I made no
reply. I listened, and I listened coldly, and as I listened I knew why
the English had blown their mutinous Sepoys from the mouths of cannon
in India long years ago.
* * * * *
And when, this morning, I saw the steward struggling with a five-gallon
carboy of sulphuric acid, I never dreamed the use he intended for it.
In the meantime I was devising another way to overcome that deadly
ventilator shaft. The scheme was so simple that I was shamed in that it
had not occurred to me at the very beginning. The slitted opening was
small. Two sacks of flour, in a wooden frame, suspended by ropes from
the edge of the chart-house roof directly above, would effectually
cover the opening and block all revolver fire.
No sooner thought than done. Tom Spink and Louis were on top the
chart-house with me and preparing to lower the flour, when we heard a
voice issuing from the shaft.
“Who’s in there now?” I demanded. “Speak up.”
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