"Oh, let's not discuss it. I don't want you to answer. I don't want to
think of it. I just want to forget--and to plan. You understand how I
feel?" She faced him with eyes bright and lustrous, her red lips parted
in a smile. She was a very beautiful woman, Kirk realized--a very
compelling, unusual woman, and one whose capabilities seemed unbounded.
He began dimly to perceive that all women have great capabilities for
good or evil, depending largely upon the accident of their environment,
and with this thought came the feeling that he must speak frankly now
or prove himself worse than base. If only she were of the weakly
feminine type his task would be far easier. But it was hard to strike
her, for the very reason that he knew she would take the blow bravely
and meet its full force.
"I must answer," he said. "I don't want to pretend; I'm not good at
lying. I can't go through with any such arrangement as you suggested.
Why, the very idea is positively--fierce. You've been awfully nice to
me, but I had no idea of--this. Besides, Cortlandt's an awfully decent
chap, and--and, well," he concluded, lamely, "there are lots of
reasons."
"Oh no! There is only one reason; all the others count for nothing."
She spoke in a voice that he could scarcely hear.
"Perhaps! But it's--just impossible."
"You know what it means?" She stared at him with hard, level eyes. "I'm
not a moderate person--I can't do things by halves. No! I see you don't
think of that, you are mad over this Garavel girl. But you can't get
her." Something in his dazzled, love-foolish smile enraged her. "So!
You are planning even now. Well, then, understand there are practical
reasons, political reasons, why you can't have her. If Garavel were
insane enough to consent, others would not. She is part of--the
machine, and there are those who will not consent to see all their work
spoiled. That is altogether apart from me, you understand. I can build,
and I can destroy--"
"There's nothing more to say," he interrupted her, quietly, "so I'd
better excuse myself."
"Yes! I would prefer to be alone."
When he had bowed himself away she crushed the fan in her hand, staring
out across the lights of the city below, and it was thus that Cortlandt
found her a few moments later, as he idled along the veranda, his hands
in his pockets, a cigarette between his lips. He dropped into the empty
chair beside her, saying:
"Hello! Thought you had this with Anthony?"
"I had."
"What's the trouble?"
"There is no trouble." She began to rock, while he studied her profile;
then, conscious of his look, she inquired, "Aren't you dancing?"
"No, just looking on, as usual. I prefer to watch. You have broken your
fan, it seems." He flung his cigarette into the darkness and, reaching
out, took the fan from her hand. She saw that his lips were drawn back
in a peculiar smile.
"Well! Is that so strange?" she answered, sharply. "You seem--" She
broke off and looked deliberately away from him.
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