The Nest Builder: A NovelHale, Beatrice Forbes-Robertson
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The Nest Builder: A Novel
Hale, Beatrice Forbes-Robertson
Marriage -- Fiction
Nor were women his only tormentors. The baby spent much of its time in
the garden, and every Sunday Stefan would find McEwan planted on the
lawn, prodding the infant with a huge forefinger, and exploding into
fatuous mirth whenever he deluded himself into believing he had made it
smile. Of late Stefan had begun to tolerate this man, but after three
such exhibitions decided to blacklist him permanently as an insufferable
idiot. Even Farraday lost ground in his esteem, for, though guilty of
no banalities, he had a way of silently hovering over the baby-carriage
which Stefan found mysteriously irritating. Jamie alone of their
masculine friends seemed to adopt a comprehensible attitude, for he
backed away in hasty alarm whenever the infant, in arms or carriage,
bore down upon him. On several occasions when the Farraday household
invaded the Byrdsnest Stefan and Jamie together sneaked away in search
of an environment more seemly for their sex.
“You are the only creature I know just now, Jamie,” Stefan said, “with
any sense of proportion;” and these two outcasts from notice would tramp
moodily through the woods, the boy faithfully imitating Stefan's slouch
and his despondent way of carrying his hands thrust in his pockets.
There were no more tales of Scotland for Jamie in these days, and as for
Stefan he hardly saw his wife. True, she always brightened when he came
in and mutely evinced her desire that he should remain, but she was
never his. While he talked her eye would wander to the cradle, or if
they were in another room her ear would be constantly strained to catch
a cry. In the midst of a pleasant interlude she would jump to her feet
with a murmured “Dinner time,” or “He must have some water now,” and be
gone.
Stefan did not sleep with her--as he could not endure being disturbed
at night--and she took a long nap every afternoon, so that at best the
hours available for him were few. Any visitor, he thought morosely, won
more attention from her than he did, and this was in a sense true, for
the visitors openly admired the baby--the heart of Mary's life--and he
did not.
He did not know how intensely she longed for this, how she ached to see
Stefan jab his finger at the baby as McEwan did, or watch it with the
tender smile of Farraday. She tried a thousand simple wiles to bring to
life the father in him. About to nurse the baby, she would call Stefan
to see his eager search for the comfort of her breast, looking up in
proud joy as the tiny mouth was satisfied.
At the very first, when the baby was newborn, Stefan had watched this
rite with some interest, but now he only fidgeted, exclaiming, “You are
looking wonderfully fit, Mary,” or “Greedy little beggar, isn't he?” He
never spoke of his old idea of painting her as a Madonna. If she
drew his attention to the baby's tiny hands or feet, he would glance
carelessly at them, with a “They're all right,” or “I'll like them
better when they're bigger.”
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