English fiction -- 19th century; London (England) -- Fiction; Poor -- Fiction; Poverty -- Fiction
There came a marvellous change—a change such as it needed either
exquisite feeling or the genius of simulation to express by means so
simple. Unable to show him by a smile, by a light in her eyes, what
mood had come upon her, what subtle shifting in the direction of her
thought had checked her words—by her mere movement as she stepped
lightly towards him, by the carriage of her head, by her hands half
held out and half drawn back again, she prepared him for what she was
about to say. No piece of acting was ever more delicately finished. He
knew that she smiled, though nothing of her face was visible; he knew
that her look was one of diffident, half-blushing pleasure. And then
came the sweetness of her accents, timorous, joyful, scarcely to be
recognised as the voice which an instant ago had trembled sadly in
self-reproach.
‘But that seems to you so long ago, doesn’t it? You can forgive me now.
Father has told me what happiness you have found, and I—I am so glad!’
Sidney drew back a step, involuntarily; the movement came of the shock
with which he heard her make such confident reference to the supposed
relations between himself and Jane Snowdon. He reddened—stood mute. For
a few seconds his mind was in the most painful whirl and conflict; a
hundred impressions, arguments, apprehensions, crowded upon him, each
with its puncturing torment. And Clara stood there waiting for his
reply, in the attitude of consummate grace.
‘Of course I know what you speak of,’ he said at length, with the
bluntness of confusion. ‘But your father was mistaken. I don’t know who
can have led him to believe that—It’s a mistake, altogether.’
Sidney would not have believed that anyone could so completely rob him
of self-possession, least of all Clara Hewett. His face grew still more
heated. He was angry with he knew not whom, he knew not why—perhaps
with himself in the first instance.
‘A mistake?’ Clara murmured, under her breath. ‘Oh, you mean people
have been too hasty in speaking about it. Do pardon me. I ought never
to have taken such a liberty—but I felt—’
She hesitated.
‘It was no liberty at all. I dare say the mistake is natural enough to
those who know nothing of Miss Snowdon’s circumstances. I myself,
however, have no right to talk about her. But what you have been told
is absolute error.’
Clara walked a few paces aside.
‘Again I ask you to forgive me.’ Her tones had not the same clearness
as hitherto. ‘In any case, I had no right to approach such a subject in
speaking with you.’
‘Let us put it aside,’ said Sidney, mastering himself. ‘We were just
agreeing that I should see your father, and make known your wish to
him.’
‘Thank you. I shall tell him, when I go upstairs, that you were the
friend whom I had asked to come here. I felt it to be so uncertain
whether you would come.’
‘I hope you couldn’t seriously doubt it.’
‘You teach me to tell the truth. No. I knew too well your kindness. I
knew that even to me—’
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