Butler, Samuel, 1835-1902 -- Notebooks, sketchbooks, etc.
If again he had prayed that he might be able to make his psalms a little
more lively, and be saved from becoming the bore which he has been to so
many generations of sick persons and young children—or that he might find
a publisher for them with greater facility—but there is no end to it.
The prayer he did pray was about the worst he could have prayed and the
psalmist, being the psalmist, naturally prayed it—unless I have misquoted
him.
ii
Prayers are to men as dolls are to children. They are not without use
and comfort, but it is not easy to take them very seriously. I dropped
saying mine suddenly once for all without malice prepense, on the night
of the 29th of September, 1859, when I went on board the _Roman Emperor_
to sail for New Zealand. I had said them the night before and doubted
not that I was always going to say them as I always had done hitherto.
That night, I suppose, the sense of change was so great that it shook
them quietly off. I was not then a sceptic; I had got as far as
disbelief in infant baptism but no further. I felt no compunction of
conscience, however, about leaving off my morning and evening
prayers—simply I could no longer say them.
iii
Lead us not into temptation (Matt. vi. 13).
For example; I am crossing from Calais to Dover and there is a well-known
popular preacher on board, say Archdeacon Farrar.
I have my camera in my hand and though the sea is rough the sun is
brilliant. I see the archdeacon come on board at Calais and seat himself
upon the upper deck, looking as though he had just stepped out of a
band-box. Can I be expected to resist the temptation of snapping him?
Suppose that in the train for an hour before reaching Calais I had said
any number of times, “Lead us not into temptation,” is it likely that the
archdeacon would have been made to take some other boat or to stay in
Calais, or that I myself, by being delayed on my homeward journey, should
have been led into some other temptation, though perhaps smaller? Had I
not better snap him and have done with it? Is there enough chance of
good result to make it worth while to try the experiment? The general
consensus of opinion is that there is not.
And as for praying for strength to resist temptation—granted that if,
when I saw the archdeacon in the band-box stage, I had immediately prayed
for strength I might have been enabled to put the evil thing from me for
a time, how long would this have been likely to last when I saw his face
grow saintlier and saintlier? I am an excellent sailor myself, but he is
not, and when I see him there, his eyes closed and his head thrown back,
like a sleeping St. Joseph in a shovel hat, with a basin beside him, can
I expect to be saved from snapping him by such a formula as “Deliver us
from evil”?
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