The old vicarage : $b A novelHubback, Mrs. (Catherine-Anne Austen)
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The old vicarage : $b A novel
Hubback, Mrs. (Catherine-Anne Austen)
English fiction -- 19th century
“No, I do not deserve your love; do not make yourself unhappy for a
fellow like me, dearest, sweetest Dora! it is too good of you; I can
never, never forget _you_! but think of me only as of a brother, as of
one who would bring you nothing but good, not sorrow; think of me with
kindness always, but not with sorrowful regret; think of me as one who
loves you devotedly, passionately; I shall treasure your image in my
heart, and dote upon it in my fancy, and in the lonely nightwatch,
dwell on the recollection of your smile; and perhaps in moments of
danger, in storm, and peril, and difficulty, your dear, bright eyes
will shine on my memory, and nerve me for daring deeds; but do not
think of me. It is enough for me to know that had there been no
obstacle you would have loved me; that had my birth and fortune
entitled me to ask your hand, I might have won you; that your heart
should have been mine, had Heaven so willed it. But do not grieve that
we must part; nay, do not shed those tears; dearest Dora! I do not
deserve so very great an honor.”
As if such words would make her care less, or quiet the heart-broken
sobs with which she listened to his protestations!
“But you are not going yet?” she murmured.
“Heaven knows how soon; but, Dora, after this, even if I do not, we
must not meet again.”
“Oh! Maurice,” ejaculated she, in overwhelming distress.
“Not purposely, not alone; no, Dora, it has been madness, wickedness
almost, to love you and make you unhappy; but we will not add to that
unintentional error the real, downright crime of carrying on a secret
understanding, a clandestine intercourse. If I may not ask you of your
father now, at least he shall not, when I do, throw back on me the
imputation that I have meanly, basely encouraged you in defying his
wishes or thwarting his hopes. If that blessed time should ever come
when I may seek you openly――if――oh! Dora,――if you still love me in
some happier future, then let us, at least, have the power of saying
and feeling we were rash, imprudent, thoughtless, but we were not
deceitful.”
The little hand he held tremblingly pressed his fingers with a
convulsive clasp, and then she murmured again――
“Oh! Maurice, I will be true to you for life; I will never, no, never,
be the bride of another; you have my heart, and shall have my faith
for life.”
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