The old vicarage : $b A novelHubback, Mrs. (Catherine-Anne Austen)
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The old vicarage : $b A novel
Hubback, Mrs. (Catherine-Anne Austen)
English fiction -- 19th century
“Your fault!” cried Gwyneth, “how? you are not to blame for the fickle
temper and the hollow friendship which have cost me so dear. I shall
be better now; this is the last moment I shall give to regret;
to-morrow I will begin a new life.”
“Then I hope that will in part consist, dear Gwyneth, in letting me
know and share your feelings. Do not fear that I shall encourage you
to weak expressions of regret for the inevitable past, only do not
shut yourself up in that frozen reserve.”
“Am I reserved? am I cold to you, Hilary? I did not mean it. But to
talk of the past can do no good. I would rather forget it altogether.”
“If you can: whatever leads to discontent, you ought to forget.”
“So I will: Hilary, I was deceived in him and in her. She has been
treacherous, and he was――ah, I can not tell you what he was to me. I
thought him all but perfect, and now――” she hid her face again.
“He has much which might have been good in him,” said Hilary, gravely;
“much which steady principle would have brought to rich fruit; but his
character is marred by his visionary turn of mind; his want of
practical, hard-working earnestness, and, too, his high thoughts of
himself. He spends his life in dreams of good, and disgust at the
faults of others. But he does nothing to remedy the evils which
disturb him.”
“You have been disappointed in him, too, Hilary; I have seen it long.”
“I have. I doubt whether Isabel will make him happy; but it is his own
choice.”
“No, it is hers, Hilary; she had set her mind on it. I have been their
plaything, but I will not be their victim. He will never know what he
has cost me.”
“You must not dwell on thoughts of injury or unkindness done you,
Gwyneth. Second causes must be forgotten, if you wish to forgive. I
was highly imprudent in allowing so much intercourse, and shall not
cease to blame myself as the cause of your sorrow.”
“No, you have done nothing to blame yourself for, dear Hilary. The
past is gone――let it go. Hope for this world, and love, with its
bright fancies, and all the youthful visions in which I once indulged,
have been dissipated forever. Henceforth my life will be one of quiet
devotion, and charitable exertion, and such other occupation as may
suit a calm and contemplative existence. To marriage and all its
attendant joys and sorrows, I have said farewell forever. For you and
Nest, all my cares shall be; and my hopes shall be fixed on an
immovable futurity. We will never mention this subject again.”
But Gwyneth’s frame was not equal to her resolution; Nature would have
its way, and the long-continued exertion, followed by a sudden
relaxation of the strain, told now in a severe attack of nervous
fever, which prostrated her for many weeks.
Hilary’s first work in her new home was that of sick nurse to her
sister.
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