Domestic fiction; Sisters -- Fiction; Women -- England -- Fiction
No answer. The door at the foot was closed.
"Sam!"
"Hello?" Distantly, faintly.
"I've done all I'm going to do to-night."
And she ran back along the corridor, a white figure in the deep gloom,
and hurried into bed, and drew the clothes up to her chin.
In the life of a bride there are some dramatic moments. If she has
married the industrious apprentice, one of those moments occurs when
she first occupies the sacred bed-chamber of her ancestors, and the bed
on which she was born. Her parents' room had always been to Constance,
if not sacred, at least invested with a certain moral solemnity. She
could not enter it as she would enter another room. The course of
nature, with its succession of deaths, conceptions, and births, slowly
makes such a room august with a mysterious quality which interprets the
grandeur of mere existence and imposes itself on all. Constance had the
strangest sensations in that bed, whose heavy dignity of ornament
symbolized a past age; sensations of sacrilege and trespass, of being a
naughty girl to whom punishment would accrue for this shocking freak.
Not since she was quite tiny had she slept in that bed--one night with
her mother, before her father's seizure, when he had been away. What a
limitless, unfathomable bed it was then! Now it was just a bed--so she
had to tell herself--like any other bed. The tiny child that, safely
touching its mother, had slept in the vast expanse, seemed to her now a
pathetic little thing; its image made her feel melancholy. And her mind
dwelt on sad events: the death of her father, the flight of darling
Sophia; the immense grief, and the exile, of her mother. She esteemed
that she knew what life was, and that it was grim. And she sighed. But
the sigh was an affectation, meant partly to convince herself that she
was grown-up, and partly to keep her in countenance in the intimidating
bed. This melancholy was factitious, was less than transient foam on
the deep sea of her joy. Death and sorrow and sin were dim shapes to
her; the ruthless egoism of happiness blew them away with a puff, and
their wistful faces vanished. To see her there in the bed, framed in
mahogany and tassels, lying on her side, with her young glowing cheeks,
and honest but not artless gaze, and the rich curve of her hip lifting
the counterpane, one would have said that she had never heard of aught
but love.
Mr. Povey entered, the bridegroom, quickly, firmly, carrying it off
rather well, but still self-conscious. "After all," his shoulders were
trying to say, "what's the difference between this bedroom and the
bedroom of a boarding-house? Indeed, ought we not to feel more at home
here? Besides, confound it, we've been married a fortnight!"
"Doesn't it give you a funny feeling, sleeping in this room? It does
me," said Constance. Women, even experienced women, are so foolishly
frank. They have no decency, no self-respect.
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