Domestic fiction; Sisters -- Fiction; Women -- England -- Fiction
The baby did not guess that a high invisible god named Samuel Povey,
whom nothing escaped, and who could do everything at once, was
controlling his universe from an inconceivable distance. On the
contrary, the baby was crying to himself, There is no God.
His weaning had reached the stage at which a baby really does not know
what will happen next. The annoyance had begun exactly three months
after his first tooth, such being the rule of the gods, and it had
grown more and more disconcerting. No sooner did he accustom himself to
a new phenomenon than it mysteriously ceased, and an old one took its
place which he had utterly forgotten. This afternoon his mother nursed
him, but not until she had foolishly attempted to divert him from the
seriousness of life by means of gewgaws of which he was sick. Still;
once at her rich breast, he forgave and forgot all. He preferred her
simple natural breast to more modern inventions. And he had no shame,
no modesty. Nor had his mother. It was an indecent carouse at which his
father and Miss Insull had to assist. But his father had shame. His
father would have preferred that, as Miss Insull had kindly offered to
stop and work on Thursday afternoon, and as the shop was chilly, the
due rotation should have brought the bottle round at half-past five
o'clock, and not the mother's breast. He was a self-conscious parent,
rather apologetic to the world, rather apt to stand off and pretend
that he had nothing to do with the affair; and he genuinely disliked
that anybody should witness the intimate scene of HIS wife feeding HIS
baby. Especially Miss Insull, that prim, dark, moustached spinster! He
would not have called it an outrage on Miss Insull, to force her to
witness the scene, but his idea approached within sight of the word.
Constance blandly offered herself to the child, with the unconscious
primitive savagery of a young mother, and as the baby fed, thoughts of
her own mother flitted to and fro ceaselessly like vague shapes over
the deep sea of content which filled her mind. This illness of her
mother's was abnormal, and the baby was now, for the first time
perhaps, entirely normal in her consciousness. The baby was something
which could be disturbed, not something which did disturb. What a
change! What a change that had seemed impossible until its full
accomplishment!
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