Domestic fiction; Sisters -- Fiction; Women -- England -- Fiction
"Now, Cyril, when the clock strikes ten I shall really put the gas out."
The clock struck ten.
"Half a mo, half a mo!" he cried. "I've done! I've done!"
Her hand was arrested.
Another four minutes elapsed, and then he jumped up. "There you are!"
he said proudly, showing her the block. And all his gestures were full
of grace and cajolery.
"Yes, it's very good," Constance said, rather indifferently.
"I don't believe you care for it!" he accused her, but with a bright
smile.
"I care for your health," she said. "Just look at that clock!"
He sat down in the other rocking-chair, deliberately.
"Now, Cyril!"
"Well, mother, I suppose you'll let me take my boots off!" He said it
with teasing good-humour.
When he kissed her good night, she wanted to cling to him, so
affectionate was his kiss; but she could not throw off the habits of
restraint which she had been originally taught and had all her life
practised. She keenly regretted the inability.
In her bedroom, alone, she listened to his movements as he undressed.
The door between the two rooms was unlatched. She had to control a
desire to open it ever so little and peep at him. He would not have
liked that. He could have enriched her heart beyond all hope, and at no
cost to himself; but he did not know his power. As she could not cling
to him with her hands, she clung to him with that heart of hers, while
moving sedately up and down the room, alone. And her eyes saw him
through the solid wood of the door. At last she got heavily into bed.
She thought with placid anxiety, in the dark: "I shall have to be firm
with Cyril." And she thought also, simultaneously: "He really must be a
good boy. He MUST." And clung to him passionately, without shame! Lying
alone there in the dark, she could be as unrestrained and girlish as
her heart chose. When she loosed her hold she instantly saw the boy's
father arranged in his coffin, or flitting about the room. Then she
would hug that vision too, for the pleasure of the pain it gave her.
III
She was reassured as to Cyril during the next few days. He did not
attempt to repeat his ingenious naughtiness of the Monday evening, and
he came directly home for tea; moreover he had, as a kind of miracle
performed to dazzle her, actually arisen early on the Tuesday morning
and done his arithmetic. To express her satisfaction she had
manufactured a specially elaborate straw-frame for the sketch after Sir
Edwin Landseer, and had hung it in her bedroom: an honour which Cyril
appreciated. She was as happy as a woman suffering from a recent
amputation can be; and compared with the long nightmare created by
Samuel's monomania and illness, her existence seemed to be now a
beneficent calm.
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