Domestic fiction; Sisters -- Fiction; Women -- England -- Fiction
Chirac's inability to draw from his own pride strength to sustain
himself against the blow of her refusal gradually killed in her the
sexual desire which he had aroused, and which during a few days
flickered up under the stimulus of fancy and of regret. Sophia saw with
increasing clearness that her unreasoning instinct had been right in
saying him nay. And when, in spite of this, regrets still visited her,
she would comfort herself in thinking: "I cannot be bothered with all
that sort of thing. It is not worth while. What does it lead to? Is not
life complicated enough without that? No, no! I will stay as I am. At
any rate I know what I am in for, as things are!" And she would reflect
upon her hopeful financial situation, and the approaching prospect of a
constantly sufficient income. And a little thrill of impatience against
the interminable and gigantic foolishness of the siege would take her.
But her self-consciousness in presence of Chirac did not abate.
As she lay in bed she awaited accustomed sounds which should have
connoted Chirac's definite retirement for the night. Her ear, however,
caught no sound whatever from his room. Then she imagined that there
was a smell of burning in the flat. She sat up, and sniffed anxiously,
of a sudden wideawake and apprehensive. And then she was sure that the
smell of burning was not in her imagination. The bedroom was in perfect
darkness. Feverishly she searched with her right hand for the matches
on the night-table, and knocked candlestick and matches to the floor.
She seized her dressing-gown, which was spread over the bed, and put it
on, aiming for the door. Her feet were bare. She discovered the door.
In the passage she could discern nothing at first, and then she made
out a thin line of light, which indicated the bottom of Chirac's door.
The smell of burning was strong and unmistakable. She went towards the
faint light, fumbled for the door-handle with her palm, and opened. It
did not occur to her to call out and ask what was the matter.
The house was not on fire; but it might have been. She had left on the
table at the foot of Chirac's bed a small cooking-lamp, and a saucepan
of bouillon. All that Chirac had to do was to ignite the lamp and put
the saucepan on it. He had ignited the lamp, having previously raised
the double wicks, and had then dropped into the chair by the table just
as he was, and sunk forward and gone to sleep with his head lying
sideways on the table. He had not put the saucepan on the lamp; he had
not lowered the wicks, and the flames, capped with thick black smoke,
were waving slowly to and fro within a few inches of his loose hair.
His hat had rolled along the floor; he was wearing his great overcoat
and one woollen glove; the other glove had lodged on his slanting knee.
A candle was also burning.
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