The Open Question: A Tale of Two TemperamentsRobins, Elizabeth
General
The Open Question: A Tale of Two Temperaments
Robins, Elizabeth
Fiction
"Oirish oyes!" It was meant well, but it had a horribly common sound. It
was another way of saying, "You look like the cook." And yet--and yet no
one had ever cared so much about being beautiful before. She would have
submitted gladly to letting those "rale Oirish oyes" be torn out and the
poor quivering little body be hacked in pieces if only it might be put
together in a truer harmony. But there _were_ ugly people in the world,
who began ugly, and went on being ugly to the bitter end. How had she
come to take it so for granted that beauty belonged to her as a right?
There was Miss Tibbs, who lived near by in Mioto Avenue. Think of being
like that! with taily hair, and little, little eyes, and teeth that--
No! no! no! She struggled to her feet, storming up into the high
window-seat, and straining till she opened the near window, and could
force back the heavy shutter, letting in a flood of light. But it was
not the sudden glory of the day that made the child blink and draw back
so suddenly. Miss Tibbs was passing the gate.
"Good-morning," said that lady, looking more appalling than ever.
"It's like that--like that I'll be," thought the child, tumbling to the
ground.
Feverishly she swept the card-basket and the books off the table. Then,
drawing up a chair, she climbed up on it, clinching her teeth and
setting her jaws to bear the shock that perhaps awaited her. And still
there was hope in her heart as she leaned forward on the marble top and
looked into the mottled glass with imploring eyes. Slowly the tears
gathered. In mute agony she turned away, climbed off the table, and hung
limp over the back of the chair.
"Oh, God, I'm ugly!" she said, and clung there with shut, hot eyes. The
moments passed. "I can't bear it, God. Let me die!"
The strained voice was muffled in her clinched little jaws, and with
her fists she beat helplessly on the back of the old-fashioned chair.
Presently she slipped down to the floor, and wandered aimless about the
room. When she came near the glass again she glanced with a sharp
conviction of intolerable shame at the top of a shaggy head, which was
all that she could see. Even that was too much. She flew to the window
and drew the shutters to, feeling she should never be able to bear the
light again.
"What did You make me for?" she cried, arrested an angry instant, facing
sharply about, as though confronting an enemy. "I didn't want to come if
I had to be ugly!" She slid down off the window-seat, and walked quickly
to and fro with rising anger. "It would have been so easy, too, for
_You_. Just think what it means to me!" She stopped and looked
heavenward. The "Oirish oyes" were blazing. "I should think You'd prefer
things pretty for yourself. But if You don't, why do You go and spoil it
all for me?" And so on, in frantic young fashion, she beat her wings
against the old prison-house. For between the origin of evil and the
origin of ugliness there is no great gulf fixed in the female mind.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account