London (England) -- History -- 18th century -- Fiction
'Matthew is not even married.'
'Indeed? Perhaps, if he is, this, as well as other blessings, has been
denied him,' she replied, with a little change in her face as if a cloud
had suddenly fallen. But it quickly passed.
I could observe that Alice regarded her visitor with admiration and
curiosity. This was a kind of woman unknown to my girl, who knew nothing
of the world or of fine ladies: they were outside her own experience.
The two women wore a strange contrast to each other. Alice with her
serious air of meditation, and her grave eyes, might have sat to a
painter for the Spirit of Music, or for St. Cecilia herself: or indeed
for any saint, or muse, or heathen goddess who must show in her face a
heavenly sweetness of thought, with holy meditation. All the purity and
tenderness of religion lay always in the face of Alice. Our visitor, on
the other hand, would have sat more fitly for the Queen of Love, or the
Spirit of Earthly Love. Truly she was more beautiful than any other
woman whom I had ever seen, or imagined. I thought her beautiful on the
stage, but then her face was covered with the crimson paint by which
actresses have to spoil their cheeks. Off the stage, it was the beauty
of Venus herself: a beauty which invited love: a beauty altogether soft:
in every point soft and sweet and caressing: eyes that were limpid and
soft: a blooming cheek which needed no paint, which was as soft as
velvet and as delicately coloured as a peach: lips smiling, rosy red and
soft: her hands: her voice: her laugh: everything about this heavenly
creature, I say, invited and compelled and created love.
You think that as one already sworn to love and comfort another woman, I
speak with reprehensible praise. Well, I have already confessed--it is
not a confession of shame--that I loved her from the very first: from
the time when she spoke to me first. I am not ashamed of loving her:
Alice knows that I have always loved her: you shall hear, presently, why
I need not be ashamed and why I loved her, if I may say so, as a sister.
It is possible to love a woman without thoughts of earthly love: to
admire her loveliness: to respect her: to worship her: yet not as an
earthly lover. Such love as Petrarch felt for Laura I felt for this
sweet and lovely woman.
She gave back the child to his mother. 'Mr. Will Halliday,' she said.
'It is not only for the child that thou art blessed above other
men'--looking so intently upon Alice that the poor girl blushed and was
confused. 'Sure,' she said, 'it is a face which I have seen in a
picture.'
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