The Ordeal of Richard Feverel: A History of a Father and SonMeredith, George
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The Ordeal of Richard Feverel: A History of a Father and Son
Meredith, George
Domestic fiction; England -- Fiction; Fathers and sons -- Fiction
They say, that when the skill and care of men rescue a drowned
wretch from extinction, and warm the flickering spirit into steady
flame, such pain it is, the blood forcing its way along the dry
channels, and the heavily-ticking nerves, and the sullen heart--the
struggle of life and death in him--grim death relaxing his gripe;
such pain it is, he cries out no thanks to them that pull him by
inches from the depths of the dead river. And he who has thought a
love extinct, and is surprised by the old fires, and the old
tyranny, he rebels, and strives to fight clear of the cloud of
forgotten sensations that settle on him; such pain it is, the old
sweet music reviving through his frame, and the charm of his passion
fixing him afresh. Still was fair Lucy the one woman to Richard. He
had forbidden her name but from an instinct of self-defence. Must
the maids of baser metal dominate him anew, it is in Lucy's shape.
Thinking of her now so near him--his darling! all her graces, her
sweetness, her truth; for, despite his bitter blame of her, he knew
her true--swam in a thousand visions before his eyes; visions
pathetic, and full of glory, that now wrung his heart, and now
elated it. As well might a ship attempt to calm the sea, as this
young man the violent emotion that began to rage in his breast. "I
shall not see her!" he said to himself exultingly, and at the same
instant thought, how black was every corner of the earth but that
one spot where Lucy stood! how utterly cheerless the place he was
going to! Then he determined to bear it; to live in darkness; there
was a refuge in the idea of a voluntary martyrdom. "For if I chose I
could see her--this day within an hour!--I could see her, and touch
her hand, and, oh, heaven!--But I do not choose." And a great wave
swelled through him, and was crushed down only to swell again more
stormily.
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