The Ordeal of Richard Feverel — CompleteMeredith, George
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The Ordeal of Richard Feverel — Complete
Meredith, George
Domestic fiction; England -- Fiction; English fiction -- 19th century; Fathers and sons -- Fiction
“I have fulfilled your commission to the best of my ability, and
heartily sad it has made me. She is indeed very much above her
station—pity that it is so! She is almost beautiful—quite beautiful at
times, and not in any way what you have been led to fancy. The poor
child had no story to tell. I have again seen her, and talked with her
for an hour as kindly as I could. I could gather nothing more than we
know. It is just a woman’s history as it invariably commences. Richard
is the god of her idolatry. She will renounce him, and sacrifice
herself for his sake. Are we so bad? She asked me what she was to do.
She would do whatever was imposed upon her—all but pretend to love
another, and that she never would, and, I believe, never will. You know
I am sentimental, and I confess we dropped a few tears together. Her
uncle has sent her for the Winter to the institution where it appears
she was educated, and where they are very fond of her and want to keep
her, which it would be a good thing if they were to do. The man is a
good sort of man. She was entrusted to him by her father, and he never
interferes with her religion, and is very scrupulous about all that
pertains to it, though, as he says, he is a Christian himself. In the
Spring (but the poor child does not know this) she is to come back, and
be married to his lout of a son. I am determined to prevent that. May I
not reckon on your promise to aid me? When you see her, I am sure you
will. It would be sacrilege to look on and permit such a thing. You
know, they are cousins. She asked me, where in the world there was one
like Richard? What could I answer? They were your own words, and spoken
with a depth of conviction! I hope he is really calm. I shudder to
think of him when he comes, and discovers what I have been doing. I
hope I have been really doing right! A good deed, you say, never dies;
but we cannot always know—I must rely on you. Yes, it is; I should
think, easy to suffer martyrdom when one is sure of one’s cause! but
then one must be sure of it. I have done nothing lately but to repeat
to myself that saying of yours, No. 54, C. 7, P.S.; and it has consoled
me, I cannot say why, except that all wisdom consoles, whether it
applies directly or not:
“‘For this reason so many fall from God, who have attained to Him; that
they cling to Him with their Weakness, not with their Strength.’
“I like to know of what you are thinking when you composed this or that
saying—what suggested it. May not one be admitted to inspect the
machinery of wisdom? I feel curious to know how thoughts—real
thoughts—are born. Not that I hope to win the secret. Here is the
beginning of one (but we poor women can never put together even two of
the three ideas which you say go to form a thought): ‘When a wise man
makes a false step, will he not go farther than a fool?’ It has just
flitted through me.
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