"I am sure I don't know...." she replied, after a moment's silence.
"Why do you want to know?"
"Just out of curiosity."
"I am angry with him."
"Why?"
"He beat me."
"Is it possible?... He?... And you allowed him to do it?... Well!...
Well!..."
Sereja could not get over it He tried to catch sight of Malva's face,
and made a mocking grimace.
"If I had liked I could have prevented him! she replied angrily.
"How's that?"
"I wouldn't defend myself!"
"You care for him then as much as that; that old grey cat?" said
Sereja, puffing out a mouthful of smoke. "Here's a nice business! And
I, who thought you were worth more than that!"
"I don't care for any of you!" she replied in a voice that had
recovered its indifference, and brushing the smoke away with her hand.
"You are lying, I bet anything."
"Why should I lie?" she asked.
And by the ring in her voice Sereja recognized that she had no reason
to lie.
"But if you don't care for him, why did you allow him to beat you?"
"How do I know?... Leave me alone!"
"It's a queer go!" said Sereja, shaking his head. And they were both
silent Night came on. The slow-moving clouds threw dark shadows over
the sea. The waves moaned.
Vassili's fire at the end of the cape had died down, but Malva
continued to look out in that direction. Sereja watched the girl
attentively.
"Listen!" he said, "do you know what you want?"
"If only I could know!" she replied in a low voice, with a deep-drawn
sigh.
"You don't know?... That's a bad job," said Sereja positively. "I, I
always know!"
And with a shade of sadness, he added--
"Only it's so rarely that I want anything...." "And I, I am always
wanting something," said Malva. "I want ... what ... I don't know....
Sometimes I would like to jump into a boat, and go out to sea, far,
far out. And at other times I should like to turn all you men into
tops, who would spin and spin in front of me. I should watch them, and
I should laugh. Sometimes I pity everybody, and especially myself;
sometimes I want to kill everybody, and then do for myself some
horrible death. And then I am bored, and then I want to laugh, and men
are all a lot of sticks."
"They are rotten wood," Sereja agreed softly. "I was right when I said
to myself--'you are neither cat, nor fish, nor bird ... but you have
something of all of them in you. You are not like other women."
"Thank God!" sighed Malva.
To their left, behind a chain of sandy hills, the moon rose, flooding
them with its silvery light. Large and soft it rose slowly in the blue
sky, and the sparkling light of the stars paled, and was lost in its
mellow, dreamy light.
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