Christianity, Conversion to -- Fiction; India -- History -- British occupation, 1765-1947 -- Fiction
He went out into the compound as often as he dared. It did not do to
spend too much time in the open, since it had not been his habit. It
might be remarked upon. He noted the figures beyond the wall, and knew
that he was being watched with the same vigilance as was shown
yesterday and the day before. Frequently his eye turned towards the
blue-green mountain mass with its dark-grey rocks and heavy forest.
Then he looked back at the familiar building, the home of his
ancestors, and once the hot unshed tears made his eyes smart at the
thought of leaving it. The blood rushed to his head and back again to
his heart with a violence that almost threw him off his mental balance.
Could he muster up strength enough to abandon all that the home meant?
Would he have the courage when the moment came to sever the ties that
bound him to father, mother, wife--no, not wife! She and the child
would follow by and by. He refused to entertain any doubt on the
subject.
All the same, he was conscious of a shudder, the kind of inward quake
experienced by the soldier at the sound of the first bullet whizzing
over his head on the battlefield. He checked it at once and took a
fresh grip of himself, sternly and resolutely shutting down sentiment
and its companion emotion.
"I can't go back! I can't go back! There is nothing but hideous
darkness behind me. I must go forward. The light is in front! Ah!
dear Christ, the Son of God! lead me forward in safety! Lead me on!"
The mental disturbance passed as suddenly as it had overwhelmed him.
Once more he was conscious of a great peace. It was as though he had
entered that wonderful temple of God standing in the heart of London,
where the strains of the organ rise above the roar of the streets, and
where a man may feel that he is in the presence of the living God of
Love, the Father of the Universe.
The sun dropped behind a shoulder of the mountain, and the sky broke
into a glory of many colours. He watched it until it faded. Suddenly
he was startled by a sound. As the last ray left the top of the hill
and the forest mantled into a sombre green, a wail arose in the women's
rooms. It was followed by the beat of a tomtom.
He stood at the entrance of the yard and listened. As the light faded
the wailing increased. He could distinguish by the sound of the voices
a movement. They were leaving the house for the garden.
Yes! He knew the ritual of old! Some one was dying, and death was
close at hand. The man or woman--he started as the thought struck him
that it might be his father--had been carried out of the house and laid
upon mother earth to breathe his last.
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