On several separate stages the dramas and comedies were being played
out, but in one great last act they might all come together for the
finale, and be called true tragedy then.
Sybil Chauntsey was playing her little part. Half frightened, half
resentful, trying to call herself a baby, to tell her awakening woman's
mind that Jimmie Gore Helmsley was only her pal, that she was a fool to
think otherwise. And then the look in the black eyes, the little subtle
caresses he had given her, gave this the lie.
Sybil would not go to a dance that evening; she pleaded headache, sat
in her stuffy room, looking out across the hot slates, thinking.
She was afraid. Who would help her now to pay this man and so get out
of his power? She had learned to dread him.
She jumped up suddenly, ran to her writing-table. Old memories crowded
back to her, her first years of coming out, when she had been so happy.
She saw the library at the Holbrooks', felt warm young hands on hers,
heard a voice saying:
"But if you are ever in any trouble, if you want help, send for me. I
shall always be ready."
Her young soldier lover would help her now; and with wet eyes above the
paper she wrote on, Sybil knew how she would turn to him again. How
gifts of flowers and sweets, expensive dinners and suppers, stolen
interviews for tea and subtle flattery, had lost their charm.
She only wrote a few lines, posted it to York, where his regiment was
stationed; she wanted his help, urgently; would he come to her _at
once_?
So the hot curtain of night fell on another act for Sybil.
Esmé had gone home after tea, found Bertie there, resting in the
flowerless drawing-room.
With nerves strung up, with her hidden excitement wearing her out, she
came to him, threw herself suddenly on her knees beside him, laid her
face against his, tried to wake the thrill which the touch of his lips
had given her once.
Bertie, surprised, drew her to him, kissing the red mouth.
It had been innocent of lip salve when he had kissed them first; her
soft cheeks had not been plastered with expensive creams and powder. As
hungry people imagine feasts, so Esmé sought for forgetfulness in
passionate kisses, in new transports of love. Sought--and found no
place. It seemed to her that Bertie had grown cold, that he no longer
cared for her. He had never been a sensualist, only an honest lover.
Whispered hints of Gore Helmsley's, little stories he had told her,
came to her as she rested her cheek against her husband's.
"Dear old Es," he said affectionately, but not passionately. "Dear old
butterfly, it's nice to have my girlie loving again; but we'll be late
for dinner if we don't dress quickly. Es, call your maid."
Esmé rang listlessly; she hardly knew what she wanted, save that it was
something which would wipe away her bitter thoughts.
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