England -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Teachers -- Fiction
During that strange twilight hour while the three of them were
tea-drinking and conducting a rather limp conversation about local
matters, Speed came suddenly to the decision that he would not see Clare
again. Partly, perhaps, because her last remark just before Helen
entered had hurt him; he felt that she had deliberately led him into a
position from which she could and did administer a stinging snub. But
chiefly his decision was due to a careful and pitiful observation of
Helen; he saw her in a dazzling white light of admiration, for she was
deliberately (he could see) torturing herself to please him. She was
acutely jealous of Clare, and yet, because she thought he liked Clare,
she was willing to give her open hospitality and encouragement, despite
the stab that every word and gesture must mean to her. It reminded him
of Hans Andersen's story about the mermaid who danced to please her
lover-prince even though each step cost her agonies. The pathos of it,
made more apparent to him by the literary comparison, overwhelmed him
into a blind fervour of resolution: he would do everything in his power
to bring happiness to one who was capable of such love and such
nobility. And as Helen thus swung into the focus of his heroine-worship,
so Clare, without his realising it, took up in his mind the other
inevitable position in the triangle; she was something, at least, of the
adventuress, scheming to lure his affections away from his brave little
wife. The fact that he was not conscious of this conventional outlook
upon the situation prevented his reason from assuring him that Clare, so
far from scheming to lure his affections from Helen, had just snubbed
him unmercifully for a remark which any capable adventuress would have
rejoiced over.
Anyway, he decided there and then, he would put a stop to this tangled
and uncomfortable situation. And after tea, when Helen, on a pretext
which he knew quite well to be a fabrication, left him alone again with
Clare, he could think of no better method of procedure than a
straightforward request.
So he summed up the necessary determination to begin: "Miss Harrington,
I hope you won't be offended at what I'm going to say----"
Whereat she interrupted: "Oh, I don't often take offence at what people
_say_. So please don't be frightened."
"You see ..." He paused, watching her. He noticed, curiously enough for
the first time, that she was--well, not perhaps pretty, but
certainly--in a way--attractive. In the firelight especially, she seemed
to have the most searching and diabolically disturbing eyes. They made
him nervous. At last he continued: "You see, I'm in somewhat of a
dilemma. A quandary, as it were. In fact--in fact I----"
"Supposing we use our ordinary English language and say that you're in a
mess, eh? 'Quandary'! 'Dilemma'!" She laughed with slight contempt.
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