England -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Teachers -- Fiction
In the morning they brought his breakfast up to him in bed, and with it
a letter and a telegram. The chambermaid asked him dubiously if he were
feeling better and he replied: "Oh yes, much better, thanks." Only
vaguely could he remember what had taken place during the night.
When the girl had gone and he had glanced at the handwriting on the
envelope, he had a sudden paralysing shock, for it was Helen's!
The postmark was: "Seacliffe, 10.10 p.m."
He tore open the envelope with slow and awful dread, and took out a
single sheet of Beach Hotel notepaper. Scribbled on it in pencil was
just:
"DEAR KENNETH" ("Dear" underlined),--Good-bye, darling. I can't bear you
not to be happy. Forget me and don't worry. They will think it has been
an accident, and you mustn't tell them anything else. Leave Millstead
and take Clare away. Be happy with her.--Yours, HELEN."--
"P.S.--There's one thing I'm sorry for. On the last night before we left
Millstead I said something about Clare and Pritchard. Darling, it was a
lie--I made it up because I couldn't bear you to love Clare so much. I
don't mind now. Forgive me."
A moment later he was opening the telegram and reading: "Shall arrive
Seacliffe Station one fifteen meet me Clare."
It had been despatched from Millstead at nine-five that morning,
evidently as soon as the post office opened.
He ate no breakfast. It was a quarter past eleven and the sun was
streaming in through the window--the first spring day of the year. He
re-read the letter.
Strange that until then the thought that the catastrophe could have been
anything at all but accidental had never even remotely occurred to him!
Now it came as a terrible revelation, hardly to be believed, even with
proof; a revelation of that utmost misery that had driven her to the
sea. He had known that she was not happy, but he had never guessed that
she might be miserable to death.
And what escape was there now from his own overwhelming guilt? She had
killed herself because he had not made her happy. Or else because she
had not been able to make him happy. Whichever it was, he was fearfully
to blame. She had killed herself to make room for that other woman who
had taken all the joy out of her life.
And at one-fifteen that other woman would arrive in Seacliffe.
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