“No,” said Desmond firmly. “There has never been a woman in my life. I
swear it—never.” Suddenly, as he spoke, there came before his eyes the
picture of a purple woman leaping into the flames—Kaweeka. “My God!” he
cried, “listen, Mavis! I’m not worthy of you. One day I will tell you
everything. It is true there was a woman once—” Mavis stifled a cry.
“Listen. She wasn’t a woman of this world, but like Jez-Riah, the woman
who was with us when we came here. I did not love her—I think I loathed
her, but she was like a siren. She exercised an unholy power over me.
Mavis—she asked me to marry her.”
“Did you?” in a whisper.
A flush of shame came over the white face. “Yes, Mavis,” hoarsely. “For
weeks I lived in her house—until my cousin found me. When he appeared
she did her best to woo him also. She cast me aside, but he was strong
where I had been weak. No overture she made was strong enough to tempt
him. He it was who brought me to my senses and saved me from everlasting
shame.”
“You loved her?”
“No! A thousand times no! Mavis—it’s difficult to explain. Our whole
story is so improbable, so fantastic, that without certain undeniable
proofs which we hold, it would be considered as the phantasy of a
disordered brain. This woman was nothing to me really; when we were
together I loathed and hated her—almost feared her, but I was clay in
her hands. It was a difficult situation—at that time I did not
understand her language or the ways of her people. Oh, how can I make
you understand! She wanted me as a new kind of toy. She knew nothing of
morality or life as we know it. Her power was almost mesmeric.”
“Is she living still?”
“No. She died—oh, years ago,” passing his hand wearily across his brow.
“I am sorry, Mavis. I had forgotten. I had no right to speak to you, but
all recollection of Kaweeka had faded from my mind until you spoke of
another woman. Will you forget what I said? I beg of you, don’t despise
me too much.”
“Dear—I hardly know what to say. I forgive you freely. I nursed you back
to life, Desmond. I devoted my whole time to you. While Matron and Nurse
Fanshaw attended to your cousin, I watched over you. You grew dear to
me. I wanted to see your eyes look at me with recognition in them.
I—I—wanted you to—to like me—a little. Then when you first became
convalescent I loved to talk to you. Dear, I can forget the past. Life
since 1914 has changed. Women have changed. We are no longer the narrow
minded stay-at-homes we were before the War.”
“The War?” asked Desmond wonderingly.
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