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He scarcely dared look at the pitiable face that he must truly reproduce
upon his canvas. Could he allow anyone save herself to see this portrait
of an unhappy woman?
Then it occurred to him that perhaps he was unduly apprehensive; that
after all, his first surmise might be correct, and that when she had
ceased to cry for her lost toy, she would dry her eyes and be happy with
something more costly and less valuable than human love. At any rate,
there was no aid that he could render; the tragedy, or the comedy, must
play itself out, with himself among the spectators.
Before he had released her, the other two returned.
“Come along,” shouted West; “it’s getting late. We won’t come in.”
As they were leaving the studio, Mrs. West held out her hand to
Maddison, saying:
“Thank you. You said you couldn’t help me—but you have.”
CHAPTER XIV
PROBABLY Maddison alone knew that Mortimer was not the empty-hearted
cynic that he wished the world to believe him to be. Mortimer’s terrible
handicap was that his character was for the most part a compound of
tender-heartedness and shyness. A jeer, a jest at his expense, a snub, a
misunderstanding, a rebuff of proffered sympathy cut him to the quick,
and he had gradually schooled himself into presenting to his friends,
even to those with whom he was intimate, an exterior of callous
carelessness, not realizing that while by so doing he would save himself
from much pain, he would inevitably also deprive himself of some of the
highest joys a man can experience. A true-hearted woman’s love would
have rescued him from his error, but the woman he had loved had sold
herself to a Jew for diamonds and a house in Park Lane. Living so
self-centered as he did, or rather so self-contained, Mortimer’s friends
were few, while his acquaintances were innumerable. The one he knew best
was George Maddison, to whom he was attached, and attached not so much
because he found in him any true comradeship, but because he felt for
him a certain pity. He knew how much there was of splendor in Maddison’s
nature and he knew equally well how much there was of weakness. He
looked upon him as a fair-weather sailor, a man who delighted to rove
over sunlit, peaceful seas, who loved to listen to the voices of the
sirens and who, if caught by Circe’s enchantments, might sink down among
the beasts. Indeed, he counted him very much as a brilliant, passionate,
wayward child. So far Maddison had met with no storms, the wind had
always been fair, the sun unclouded, the sirens more attracted by him
than he by them, but this attachment, this passion for Marian,
frightened Mortimer. An absorbing love for a good woman might have been
Maddison’s salvation, but Marian was utterly bad in his estimation, and
he could not perceive ahead anything save misery. That Marian would not
rest content with Maddison’s love and protection he was assured; already
she might be playing false to him; when Maddison discovered—as discover
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