London (England) -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
It was hot passion at first, overwhelming passion for
a beautiful, desirable woman; this passion had not decreased, had not in
any way been satiated by possession, but added to it now was the other
part of love, which is as unselfish as passion is selfish. Her
happiness, her peace, her delight, how could he best secure them? It
shocked him at first when he tried to reduce this vague wish to
practicality, to find that the first thing he must do was to work for
money. There was no escaping from that—he must make money; he must
work. He could not work with her beside him—at least he could not do so
now; perhaps the time would come when he could not work apart from
her—perhaps that time had indeed come, though he did not know
it—perhaps—perhaps—; so round and round in this circle his thoughts
flew, and the one thing that came forth clear to him was that he must
agree to Marian returning to town and to his not seeing her for some
weeks.
He saw her off; stood looking after her, almost dazed, then turned away
like one blind, and walked slowly home to the empty studio and the empty
life.
Far different were Marian’s feelings on parting with him. His decision
had taken her by surprise, until he had put fairly before her the
reasons that were his motives. She had feigned willingness to share any
degree of poverty with him, well knowing that she did not risk anything
by so doing, but on the contrary fixed more firmly his determination to
ask her for no sacrifice. Of Squire they had not spoken. She was not so
inhuman as not to feel any touch of gratitude, or any spark of pity for
the man who loved her so truly and so unselfishly; she almost wished she
could have loved him; but being what she was, these emotions did not
make her for a moment hesitate to pursue the course she had mapped out
for herself. The love of power, which had once been her strongest
motive, was growing weaker day by day; the love of luxury and pleasure
growing in intensity; the world declining in its attractions; the flesh
and the devil in her increasing in their sway over her wishes and
actions. Philip West now attracted her chiefly as a rich man, only in
the second place because of the satisfaction it would be to reduce a
strong man to her command; Sydney Geraldstein appealed to all that was
basest in her. She had not seen West since he had driven her in his car,
but she knew that he would hear at once of her return to town, for
Maddison had decided to call on Mrs. West, in order to arrange for the
resumption of the sittings for the portrait. How soon would West come to
see her? Would he come at all?
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