London (England) -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
“Well, let’s cheer each other up and be sociable. I got a regular scare
this afternoon; for the first time in my life I felt not young, and I’m
blowed if I’m going to grow old yet—not me. But work, work, work
and——”
He broke off without finishing his sentence and stared gloomily into the
fire.
“You old!” said Marian, laughing, “I can’t imagine you that. I thought
you were one of those men too full of energy ever to grow old. I expect
you’re tired.”
“I guess so, but I shall stay tired, unless I have something to stop my
stewing over business. I’ve had a tough fight for the last few days, but
I’ve downed a man who tried to down me; but he fought well and has tried
me. Young men ought to feel all the fresher after a fight.”
“Fight! It must be good to be a man and able to fight. A woman’s just an
onlooker—a silly, helpless onlooker. Oh! How I should love to be a man
and to fight! It’s sickening,” she exclaimed, pacing angrily up and down
the room, her fists clenched, her cheeks glowing, all for the moment
forgotten except the fiery ambition which had been smoldering and not
yet extinct. “It’s sickening to have one’s hands tied. A woman can’t
_do_ anything, she’s not allowed. She’s just a doll, an ugly doll or a
pretty doll, and she squeaks the words she’s expected to say.”
“You’re not like that, though,” West said, watching her with undisguised
admiration.
Here for the first time he was in contact with a woman both beautiful
and intellectually gifted. He envied Maddison, who, he felt assured,
could never call forth all that Marian could give a man. Maddison did
not deserve her, and if he could he would win her away from him. He
thought of his wife, the pretty doll; he looked at Marian. This was the
woman who could stir his pulse and who would spur him on to fight.
“You’re not like that,” he repeated; “you forget one thing. A man fights
for himself; a woman may not be able to do that, but she can make a man
fight for her as well as for himself. That’s the fight worth having.
Often and often, do you know, when I’ve scored heavily, I’ve just
dropped my hands and wondered what on earth I was working for. Ambition?
That’s not worth a damn. Money? I’ve got more now than I know how to
spend; I just spend it, risk it, for the sake of making more—a regular
wild gambler’s risk very often. But—well, be a good soul, pop on a
pretty frock and come along.”
“I’ll come. Would you like a drink? A B. and S., or anything—well, not
anything, for my cellar’s jolly low at present.”
“Not for me, thanks. Appetizers spoil my appetite, and I’ve a rattling
good one at the present moment. How long’ll you be—half an hour—or an
hour—eh?”
“Half an hour, really not more. I won’t keep you waiting.”
“Right. Well, I’ll be back in half an hour, sharp.”
“But won’t you wait here?”
“No, thanks; I’ll go for a stroll and a cigarette. _Au revoir._”
They were both punctual, in fact, Marian was waiting for him.
He held out a spray of green orchids.
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