They pressed round him, shaking him by the hand and reassuring him.
Micky took it for what it was worth. He knew that those of them who
were married men would go straight home and tell their wives of the
scene at Hoopers', and he knew how speedily the story would spread.
He got away as soon as he could and left the house.
He never gave Marie another thought, till he found himself out in the
street and walking away through the fresh spring night.
He took off his hat and let the air blow on his hot forehead; his hand
still trembled with excitement.
He tried to think, but his thoughts would not come clearly. When he
got back to his rooms he asked Driver for a stiff brandy. The man
looked at his master diffidently, and asked if anything were the
matter.
Micky laughed.
"Why? Do I look as if there is?" He glanced at himself in the mirror.
His face was very white.
"No, there's nothing the matter. I'm tired, that's all."
Driver turned to the door, but Micky called him back.
"You've been with me a good many years, Driver," he said.
"Yes, sir."
"And you've been a faithful servant."
"Thank you, sir."
The man's stolidness did not change a fraction.
Micky took a gulp at the brandy.
"If you were to hear that I'm married, you wouldn't be surprised,
would you?" he asked with a rush.
Driver stood immovable.
"Not in the least, sir."
"You would even say that you knew that I've been married some weeks,
wouldn't you?"
"I should, sir."
"Good--you may go."
"Thank you, sir, and good-night."
"Good-night," said Micky.
And now, what was to be done now?
When he left this room three hours ago it had been with the
determination to put the past behind him for ever, and what had he
done? Only walked more deeply into his quixotism and seriously
compromised the woman he loved.
He had said that she was his wife. It gave him a little thrill to
remember that a dozen of his acquaintances had heard him say it, and
were probably even now spreading the story of his marriage far and
wide.
He paced up and down the room. He had failed all round; even love and
desperate desire had not been able to help him.
He thought suddenly of June; June who, with all her bluntness, had a
great heart and a deep understanding.
She would not want explanations; she would know why he had done it,
and sympathise.
But June was obviously not the one concerned. It was not to June that
he must confess.
The clock in his room struck twelve; too late to do anything to-night.
The memory of Marie returned--Marie as she had looked when he found
her in the drawing-room that night; as she had looked when he had left
her in the little anteroom at the Hoopers' and gone out with murder in
his heart to find Ashton.
He stopped dead in his pacing.
"Oh, you cad--you cad!" he said with a groan.
Life was an intolerable, purposeless thing. He sat down at his desk
and leaned his head in his hands. His whole life seemed to spell
failure. With sudden impulse he seized a pen and began to write.
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