There were plenty of men there who would gladly have seen Fenton leave
the club; the members of the Executive Committee were smarting under
the rebuke he had brought upon them; but the excitement of the moment,
the admiration which courage and dash always excite, carried all before
them. The motion was voted with noise enough to make it at least seem
hearty, and with no outspoken negatives to prevent its appearing
unanimous. His friends dragged him back and insisted upon drinking with
him, the formalities of adjournment being swallowed up in the uproar.
His triumph could not have been more complete, and its celebration,
with much discussion, much congratulation and not a little wine, lasted
until midnight.
And all the while, as he talked and jested and argued and laughed and
drank, his brain was playing with the question of right and wrong as a
child with a shuttlecock. Without a hearty conviction of the absolute
justice of the principle for which he contended, it is doubtful if
Fenton could have acted the lie of assumed innocence. He had entangled
the question of his guilt with that of the propriety of the action of
the committee so inextricably that one could scarcely be taken up
without the other. He admired himself as an actor, he approved of
himself as a logician, and he despised himself--without any
heart-burning bitterness--as a liar. He was too clear-headed to be able
to bejuggle himself with the reasoning that he had not been guilty of
falsehood because he had never specifically and in word denied the
charge of the committee. Yet with all his pride in his
self-comprehension, he really deceived himself. He supposed himself to
have been animated by the desire to establish a principle in which he
really believed, to conquer and humiliate the Secretary, and to please
himself by acting an amusing _role_; while in truth he had been
instigated by his dominant selfish instinct of self-preservation. But
he thoroughly enjoyed his triumph, and by the time he left the house he
seemed to have established himself on quite a new footing of friendship
with even the members of the Executive Committee.
As he went down the steps of the club, starting for home, Chauncy
Wilson said to him, with his usual rough jocularity,--
"I'll bet you a quarter, Fenton, you did bring Snaffle in that night,
after all. By the way, did you know that Princeton Platinum had gone
all to flinders?"
XXVII
UPON A CHURCH BENCH.
Much Ado about Nothing; iii.--3.
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