The Poems and Prose of Ernest Dowson, With a Memoir by Arthur SymonsDowson, Ernest Christopher
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The Poems and Prose of Ernest Dowson, With a Memoir by Arthur Symons
Dowson, Ernest Christopher
Authors, English; English poetry
to bring him down to personal topics, but he eluded them dexterously,
and it was only for a moment or so that I could keep him away from the
all absorbing subject of the Catholic Church, which seems in some of
its more sombre aspects to exercise an extraordinary fascination over
him. I asked him if he often visited Bruges.
He looked up at me with a curious expression of surprise.
'I live here,' he said, 'almost always.' I have done so for years....'
Presently he added hurriedly, 'You have come back. I thought you would
come back, but you have been gone a long time--oh, a long time! It
seems years since we met. Do you remember--?' He checked himself; then
he added in a low whisper, 'We all come back, we all come back.'
He uttered a quaint, short laugh.
'One can be near--very near, even if one can never be quite close.'
He tells me that he still paints, and that the Academy, to which he
sends a picture yearly, has recently elected him an Associate. But his
art does not seem to absorb him as it did of old, and he speaks of his
success drily and as a matter of very secondary importance. He refused
to dine with me, alleging an engagement, but that so hesitatingly and
with such vagueness that I could perceive it was the merest pretext.
His manner was so strange and remote that I did not venture to press
him. I think he is unhappily conscious of his own frequent
incoherencies and at moments there are quite painful pauses when he is
obviously struggling with dumb piteousness to be lucid, to collect
himself and pick up certain lost threads in his memory. He is coming
to see me this evening, at his own suggestion, and I am waiting for
him now with a strange terror oppressing me. I cannot help thinking
that he possesses the key to all that has so puzzled me, and that
to-night he will endeavour to speak.
_11th October._
Poor Lorimer! I have hardly yet got over the shock which his visit
last night caused me, and the amazement with which I heard and read
between the lines of his strange confession. His once clear reason is,
I fear, hopelessly obscured, and how much of his story is
hallucination, I cannot say. His notions of time and place are quite
confused, and out of his rambling statement I can only be sure of one
fact. It seems that he has done me a great wrong, an irreparable
wrong, which he has since bitterly repented.
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