Next door to the house in which Elsie resided, dwelt a tradesman and his
wife, who kept an indefinite sort of shop, in which various kinds of
goods were exposed for sale. Their youngest son was about the same age
as Elsie; and while they were rather more than children, and less than
young people, he spent many of his evenings with her, somewhat to the
loss of position in his classes at the parish school. They were, indeed,
much attached to each other; and, peculiarly constituted as Elsie was,
one may imagine what kind of heavenly messenger a companion stronger
than herself must have been to her. In fact, if she could have framed
the undefinable need of her childlike nature into an articulate prayer,
it would have been--“Give me some one to love me stronger than I.” Any
love was helpful, yes, in its degree, saving to her poor troubled soul;
but the hope, as they grew older together, that the powerful, yet
tender-hearted youth, really loved her, and would one day make her his
wife, was like the opening of heavenly eyes of life and love in the
hitherto blank and deathlike face of her existence. But nothing had been
said of love, although they met and parted like lovers.
Doubtless, if the circles of their thought and feeling had continued as
now to intersect each other, there would have been no interruption to
their affection; but the time at length arrived when the old couple,
seeing the rest of their family comfortably settled in life, resolved to
make a gentleman of the youngest; and so sent him from school to
college. The facilities existing in Scotland for providing a
professional training enabled them to educate him as a surgeon. He
parted from Elsie with some regret; but, far less dependent on her than
she was on him, and full of the prospects of the future, he felt none of
that sinking at the heart which seemed to lay her whole nature open to a
fresh inroad of all the terrors and sorrows of her peculiar existence.
No correspondence took place between them. New pursuits and relations,
and the development of his tastes and judgments, entirely altered the
position of poor Elsie in his memory. Having been, during their
intercourse, far less of a man than she of a woman, he had no definite
idea of the place he had occupied in her regard; and in his mind she
receded into the background of the past, without his having any idea
that she would suffer thereby, or that he was unjust towards her; while,
in her thoughts, his image stood in the highest and clearest relief. It
was the centre-point from which and towards which all lines radiated and
converged; and although she could not but be doubtful about the future,
yet there was much hope mingled with her doubts.
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