"Yes, she has one of those aberrations common to her youth and her
sex. She is repeating a madness of old Greece, and following you as
a nymph might a goddess."
"It is only because she is grateful," returned Cynthia, looking
rather annoyed.
"Gratitude may be a factor in it, but it is very far from being the
whole of the matter. It is one of the spring madnesses of life; but
don't be alarmed, it will be temporary in the case of a girl like
that. She will easily be led into her natural track of love. Do you
know, Cynthia, that she is one of the most normal, typical young
girls I ever saw, and that makes me wonder more at this impression
of unusual ability which she undoubtedly gives. She has all the
weaknesses of her age and sex, she is much younger than some girls
of her age, and yet there is the impression which I cannot shake
off."
"I have it, too," said Cynthia, rather impatiently.
"Cynthia Lennox, I don't believe you care in the least for this
young devotee of yours, for all you are heaping benefits upon her,"
Risley said, looking at her quizzically.
"I am not sure that I do," replied Cynthia, calmly.
"Then why on earth--?"
Suddenly Cynthia began speaking rapidly and passionately,
straightening herself in her chair. "Oh, Lyman, do you think I could
do a thing like that, and not repent it and suffer remorse for it
all these years?" she cried.
"A thing like that?"
"Like stealing that child," Cynthia replied, in a whisper.
"Stealing the child? You did not steal the child."
"Yes, I did."
"Why, it was only a few hours that you kept her."
"What difference does it make whether you steal anything for a few
hours or a lifetime? I kept her, and she was crying for her mother,
and her mother was suffering tortures all that time. Then I kept it
secret all these years. You didn't know what I have suffered,
Lyman."
Cynthia regarded him with a wan look.
Risley half laughed, then checked himself. "My poor girl, you have
the New England conscience in its worst form," he said.
"You yourself told me it was a serious thing I was doing," Cynthia
said, half resentfully. "One does not wish one's sin treated lightly
when one has hugged its pricks to one's bosom for so long--it
detracts from the dignity of suffering."
"So I did, but all those years ago!"
"If you don't leave me my remorse, how can I atone for the deed?"
"Cynthia, you are horribly morbid."
"Maybe you are right, maybe it is worse than morbid. Sometimes I
think I am unnatural, out of drawing, but I did not make myself, and
how can I help it?" Cynthia spoke with a pathetic little laugh.
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