Grandparent and child -- Fiction; Spanish Americans -- Fiction
The exercise was, as a matter of fact, almost entirely mental, the
pacing up and down merely an unconscious physical accompaniment. Albert
Speranza was indulging in introspection. He was reviewing and assorting
his thoughts and his impulses and trying to determine just what they
were and why they were and whither they were tending. It was a mental
and spiritual picking to pieces and the result was humiliating and in
its turn resulted in a brand-new determination.
Ever since his meeting with Helen, a meeting which had been quite
unpremeditated, he had thought of but little except her. During his talk
with her in the parsonage sitting room he had been--there was no use
pretending to himself that it was otherwise--more contented with the
world, more optimistic, happier, than he had been for months, it seemed
to him for years. Even while he was speaking to her of his uneasiness
and dissatisfaction he was dimly conscious that at that moment he was
less uneasy and less dissatisfied, conscious that the solid ground was
beneath his feet at last, that here was the haven after the storm, here
was--
He pulled up sharply. This line of thought was silly, dangerous, wicked.
What did it mean? Three days before, only three days, he had left
Madeline Fosdick, the girl whom he had worshiped, adored, and who
had loved him. Yes, there was no use pretending there, either; he and
Madeline HAD loved each other. Of course he realized now that their
love had nothing permanently substantial about it. It was the romance
of youth, a dream which they had shared together and from which,
fortunately for both, they had awakened in time. And of course he
realized, too, that the awakening had begun long, long before the actual
parting took place. But nevertheless only three days had elapsed since
that parting, and now--What sort of a man was he?
Was he like his father? Was it what Captain Zelotes used to call the
“Portygee streak” which was now cropping out? The opera singer had been
of the butterfly type--in his later years a middle-aged butterfly whose
wings creaked somewhat--but decidedly a flitter from flower to flower.
As a boy, Albert had been aware, in an uncertain fashion, of his
father's fondness for the sex. Now, older, his judgment of his parent
was not as lenient, was clearer, more discerning. He understood now. Was
his own “Portygee streak,” his inherited temperament, responsible for
his leaving one girl on a Tuesday and on Friday finding his thoughts
concerned so deeply with another?
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