Feminist fiction; Women -- Social and moral questions -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
They had an early supper, for Karl was leaving for a day or two in
Denver and had to be driven ten miles to the station. He was unusually
silent, and Honora was well pleased that he should be so, for, though
she had kept herself so busily occupied all the day, she had not been
able to rid herself of the feeling that a storm of memories was waiting
to burst upon her. The feeling had grown as the hours of the day went
on, and she at once dreaded and longed for the solitude she should have
when Karl was gone. She was relieved to find that the little girls were
weary and quite ready for their beds. She watched Karl drive away,
standing at the door for a few moments till she heard his clear voice
calling a last good-bye as the station wagon swept around the piñon
grove; then she locked the house and went to her own room. A fire had
been laid for her, and she touched a match to the kindling, lighted her
lamp, and took up some sewing. But she found herself too weary to sew,
and, moreover, this assailant of recollection was upon her again.
She had once seen the Northern lights when the many-hued glory seemed to
be poured from vast, invisible pitchers, till it spread over the floor
of heaven and spilled earthward. Her memories had come upon her
like that.
Then she faced the fact she had been trying all day not to recognize.
It was David's birthday!
She admitted it now, and even had the courage to go back over the ways
they had celebrated the day in former years; at first she held to the
old idea that these recollections made her suffer, but presently she
perceived that it was not so. Had her help come from the hills, as Karl
had told her it would?
She sat so still that she could hear the ashes falling in the
fireplace--so still that the ticking of her watch on the dressing-table
teased her ears. She seemed to be listening for something--for something
beautiful and solemn. And by and by the thing she had been waiting
for came.
It swept into the house as if all the doors and windows had been thrown
wide to receive it. It was as invisible as the wind, as scentless as a
star, as complete as birth or death. It was peace--or forgiveness--or,
in a white way, perhaps it was love.
Suddenly she sprang to her feet.
"David!" she cried. "David! Oh, I _believe I understand!_"
She went to her desk, and, as if she were compelled, began to write.
Afterward she found she had written this:--
"DEAR DAVID:--
"It is your birthday, and I, who am so used to sending you a
present, cannot be deterred now. Oh, David, my husband, you
who fathered my children, you, who, in spite of all, belong
to me, let me tell you how I have at last come, out of the
storm of angers and torments of the past year, into a
sheltered room where you seem to sit waiting to hear me say,
'I forgive you.'
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