So she had. But the discovery that she was clearly in the wrong, that
she had invited the disguised lecture, only aggravated her sense of
resentment against Mrs. Brindley. She spent the rest of the afternoon
in sorting and packing her belongings--and in crying. She came upon
the paper Donald Keith had left. She read it through carefully,
thoughtfully, read it to the last direction as to exercise with the
machine, the last arrangement for a daily routine of life, the last
suggestion as to diet.
"Fortunately all that isn't necessary," said she to herself, when she
had finished. "If it were, I could never make a career. I'm not
stupid enough to be able to lead that kind of life. Why, I'd not care
to make a career, at that price. Slavery--plain slavery."
When she went in to dinner, she saw instantly that Cyrilla too had been
crying. Cyrilla did not look old, anything but that, indeed was not
old and would not begin to be for many a year. Still, after
thirty-five or forty a woman cannot indulge a good cry without its
leaving serious traces that will show hours afterward. At sight of the
evidences of Cyrilla's grief Mildred straightway forgot her resentment.
There must have been some other cause for Cyrilla's peculiar conduct.
No matter what, since it was not hardness of heart.
It was a sad, even a gloomy dinner. But the two women were once more
in perfect sympathy. And afterward Mildred brought the Keith paper and
asked Cyrilla's opinion. Cyrilla read slowly and without comment. At
last she said:
"He got this from his mother, Lucia Rivi. Have you read her life?"
"No. I've heard almost nothing about her, except that she was famous."
"She was more than that," said Mrs. Brindley. "She was great, a great
personality. She was an almost sickly child and girl. Her first
attempts on the stage were humiliating failures. She had no health, no
endurance, nothing but a small voice of rare quality." Cyrilla held up
the paper. "This tells how she became one of the surest and most
powerful dramatic sopranos that ever lived."
"She must have been a dull person to have been able to lead the kind of
life that's described there," said Mildred.
"Only two kinds of persons could do it," replied Cyrilla--"a dull
person--a plodder--and a genius. Middling people--they're the kind that
fill the world, they're you and I, my dear--middling people have to
fuss with the trifles that must be sacrificed if one is to do anything
big. You call those trifles your freedom, but they're your slavery.
And by sacrificing them the Lucia Rivis buy their freedom." Cyrilla
looked at the paper with a heavy sigh. "Ah, I wish I had seen this
when I was your age. Now, it's too late."
Said Mildred: "Would you seriously advise me to try that?"
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