"But it is she who is not fair to me. She never was fair. It isn't that
I'm sorry to come back to you and Mrs. Hazel—or to Grannie! It is the
being made like this—forced!—without any choice. She has no right. I am
not a child now. And I did so count on the next few days—if it might
not be more, just those days. I was learning so much that was new and
lovely!"
"Yes. But the lessons we want to learn are not always those that the
Great Teacher sets us." He spoke in an everyday tone, not as one
preaching.
"It isn't—'that?' It is Barbara!"
"It is always 'that,' my child—no matter how the disappointment comes."
"If she had explained—if Grannie needed me. It is the being made that I
hate. Wouldn't you, in my place?"
"Yes," he said, and her face grew softer.
"I'm glad. Then it isn't altogether wrong to be vexed."
"No; perhaps not. But if I were you, I wouldn't waste too much time
over your cousin's share. If she has wronged you, she has to be
forgiven; and it is more dignified not to show offence. People make
foolish blunders; but one may credit them with a right intention."
"Ought one? Only, I'm sure she did mean unkindness." Then, with a laugh
of apology—"Perhaps I am as unfair to her as she is to me."
"Good!" They were now moving on. "To see in oneself that possibility is
a first step towards a right spirit. Nine-tenths of the disagreements
in this world arise from a want of fairness in judging others. We have
too often one rule for ourselves, another for other people." He flipped
off a dandelion-head with the tip of his whip. "One should be fair
towards everybody—" and he could not resist adding—"even Miss Pringle."
Phyllys' eyes twinkled. She knew that her cousin and her cousin's
friend were thorns in the Vicar's side. Whatever he did they opposed;
whatever he said they contradicted. But he met their opposition in
a large and manly way, and laughed at their contradiction. It was
more serious when they systematically upset his influence among the
cottagers; yet even there the Vicar was reasonable. He insisted that
though their methods were, from his point of view, entirely wrong,
their aims were good; and he would allow no wholesale condemnation.
Phyllys, aware of all this, realised the force of his advice.
"I'll try," she said. "Only Barbara isn't fair towards 'them!'"
"Towards—?"
"Giles and Colin—and Mrs. Keith. She thinks unjustly. She says they are
bad."
"And you have found them good?"
"Yes!" emphatically. Then, "Yes," more slowly. "I suppose there are
different sorts of goodness. I don't mean that they are—perfect."
"We need not expect from others what others don't find in us."
"Mrs. Keith puzzles me; still, in a way she is religious. I am sure she
is. And Giles—he doesn't say much, but I couldn't tell you how kind he
is, how he thinks of everybody. Of course—" and a fresh pause—"he has
faults."
"So have we!"
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